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A Bit about me.... (Possible triggers)
Hi everyone,
I introduced myself in the intro forum but wanted to here as well if that's ok.
I'm 26 and have been self harming since I was a teenager. I never sought help until this year when I had a bit of a breakdown.
My parents know that I am depressed but they do not know about the self harm.
I'm currently on 40mg Citalopram and 7.5mg Zopiclone and having weekly counselling sessions. I have been referred to the crisis team who have referred me to the Mental Well Being and Access Team. I am still awaiting hearing anything from them but I did email them today to chase them up.
Today was a big day for me as I came clean to my counsellor. I had told her that I used to self harm but that I don't do it anymore. Today I told her the truth and admitted it was still happening. She got a bit worried thinking that I was only doing it because we were dragging up issues from my past that are hard for me an that maybe we shouldn't be exploring these things. I can see where she is coming from but to me the alternative is not to confront things and still carry on.
She recommended I go back to see my GP to try and rush my referral through and to also adjust my meds as they don't seem to be having the desired effect. She says it is very important that I get assessed by the mental health professionals as there is only so much she can do as a counsellor. I will most likely go see him next week.
So that's my self harm and depression story as it stands today. I'm proud that I told the truth.
Other than all that stuff I think I can be quite a nice person. I'm not very good at advice but I'm quite good at listening. I do tend to see things as very black and white so can sometimes be very blunt. However I do recognise this in myself so as long as someone points it out to me I will apologise. I recognise my flaws and have spent many years hiding them away. I'm now having to confront them so every now and again they come out in the negative and I will apologise pre-emptively for that now.
Wow if you've read all of this you deserve a medal, unfortunately I don't have one so my gratitude will have to suffice. I look forward to meeting you all and getting to know you.
Much love
xx
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