Mildly Triggering (ED) - Why do I always keep going back

[claret]

I know it doesn't work, i've been here too many times before. Whichever way I look at it doing this isn't going to make anything better. So then why yet again am I restricting. Yes i'll loose weight, i'll fit into my smaller clothes, but it won't change the fact that a I hate myself. However small that number on the scale gets it won't make a difference.

So why even with all this knowledge do I find it so hard to eat, why do I convince myself that my body doesn't need food.

Just so confused and fed up with it all at the moment

[-Tough-Cookie-]

Its FANTASTIC that you can see the rational part of all this. Its that which will give you the power to keep fighting.

I'm not really sure what to say to help..but we are here.

[Whispered Secret]

Quote:

Originally Posted by -Kel-

Its FANTASTIC that you can see the rational part of all this. Its that which will give you the power to keep fighting.

I'm not really sure what to say to help..but we are here.

^^This (kel put it so well I couldn't bear to try to think of another way)

Sending lots of cuddles
xxxxx

[Friday]

kel did put it best. knowing that what you're doing to yourself is wrong will help you to start to recover. the next time you're about to turn away from food, maybe you could remind yourself that restricting isn't really going to help.
hope you're okay.

[nowhereman]

As a nurse said to me yesterday, old habits die hard. Ed can feel safe, like a comfort zone but you know it's not safe at all, its so dangerous. Please get some help with this.