Triggering (SI) - Just not good enough *ranty*

GrimmFaerieTale · 17-09-2009, 04:02 PM

First my brother went to Scotland to do his first degree. Did very little work. Got a first. Then he went to Cambridge to do his second degree. Got a first. Then got a good job. Now is back at Cambridge for his doctorate. Relative is about to start at Cambridge, at a good college. She got great results. Best friend got nothing lower than As through her GSCEs and ALevels. She got into all her choices for vet medicine no less. What did I do? Crap results at GCSE. Crap results at A Level despite being predicted ABB. Failed to get into my first choice. Went to Scotland. Left after a term. Now desperately homesick for there. Had 18 months off. Now back at uni for a second go. In second year. Not sure about the course, not sure about the uni, desperately want to go back to Scotland but can't. I am such a failure, and just feel such a desperate failure. I just want to go back to Scotland and do the degree I started doing there.

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The Fantastical · 18-09-2009, 01:52 PM

No, you're not the only one at all. -hugs-

UbermoronicismAgain · 18-09-2009, 03:25 PM

You're not the only one, I think anyone who says they've never felt like that would be lying. We all have natural human emotions which come to each and every one of us whether we like it or not.
This is one of them. Jealousy. And it's completely normal.

Do you know what it is about Scotland that you miss?
Could you recreate some of those feelings where you are now?

I could never have gone to University. I don't do Academia. You're doing so well, and you should be proud of yourself for giving it another go. If you can't do it, you can't do it! It wouldn't be the end of the world if you went and got a normal job and lived your life. And if that's what happens then so be it.

I hope you start to feel better soon.

Take care,
Iz x

GrimmFaerieTale · 20-09-2009, 12:20 PM

Thank you guys :) Sorry about not replying earlier, am off visiting people so can't get on the internet for very long! I think I miss the countryside and space and (I know it sounds stupid) smell of Scotland I miss which is going to be hard to recreate but it's a good idea so I might see if there is anyway near uni where I can go walking or something to help :) xxx