Triggering (Suicide) - Lame? *Rantish*

LozzyGirl · 14-09-2009, 06:05 PM

Is it lame that I wanna die because ive had enough of life?
Had enough of trying?
Had enough of waiting for things to get better for them only to get worse?
I have my head in the clouds so much that when reality hits it hits me hard.
I dont like being alive.
Theres nothing I like about it.
So whats the point?
And the weird thing is.. nothing triggered this.
Im not crying atm or anything..
I just dont see the point in living anymore.
Everyone goes on about that my family wouldnt want me dead. But what about what i want?
Dont I matter?
Okay im being selfish..
But they would be better off without me.
I just cause them more problems.
Sorry... Kinda ranting here...
I just dont see the point anymore.

everybodysfoolx · 14-09-2009, 06:16 PM

i can totally relate to this atm, i dont really no what to say because i know whatevr i do its not really gna change how you feel but, i just stay hopeful that just because atm i cant see any point doesnt mean that there isnt one at all, i just havent found it yet. hope that helps you kinda, and im sure you family love you and that they would care if you died.
sorry im not much help feel free to pm if you want to chat.
take care x

one_step_closer · 14-09-2009, 06:43 PM

It's so hard when you feel this way but it's not impossible to get through it. Hope is always there even if you can't see it. Waiting for things to get better won't make them get better, you have to be actively involved in trying to move forward and keep trying even when things don't seem to be working. What needs to change in your life to make it at least a little bit better? What is it that you want to get away from? We are all here for you. Please stay safe and take care.

LozzyGirl · 14-09-2009, 07:51 PM

There is no reason for me being here, unless its to suffer.
And Ive tried making it better without any success.

88shelz · 14-09-2009, 10:37 PM

i dont think its lame at all
that is usually how i feel
but on my better days i know that ife does get better
its hard to get through some days but other days will make things soooo much worth it. done make any rash decisions x

HopeRises · 14-09-2009, 11:05 PM

I can totally relate to what your saying.
But I live in hope for the good days
I know I've had good days in the past and I'm sure there will be good days again and that at the moment is just a tough time?
Maybe you should plan something that you can look forward too?
Work out some things like how you want things in your life to get better and what you can do about it?
I really hope you feel better soon.

LozzyGirl · 15-09-2009, 02:07 PM

I used to have good times.
I dont anymore.
All my friends have forgotten me or dont want me.
All I do is sit at home doing nothing. On my computer or reading. Even at school I feel alone. Ive tried making my life better, tried to plan things but no one wants to spend time with me.
Whats the point?

rach · 15-09-2009, 04:57 PM

I can relate to how you're feeling, and I'm really sorry that you're struggling so much at the moment.

It sounds like one of your biggest struggles is that you have nothing to do, and feel as though your life is empty? You do mention, though, that you're at school, so that would fill most of your days? How about looking in to some clubs or something run by a local organisation, that could not only fill your time but help you to meet people?

Hang in there, you can get through this xxx