Ahhhh, why can i fight for so long then lose it over someone i dont even know saying that one thing that rubs me the wrong way! IT turns me into such a horrible person, and i hate it!!!!
Ah, I really want to end it, end it now! I dont want to wake up tomorrow!
I want to go in my sleep, would an OD work? Oh I just dont know anymore!
Im so pathetic! /why cant i end it? Why do I keep fighting so hard to end up in the same horrible mess, tangled in a ball of lies?
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH, cant take this!!!!!!
Learn from the past, Hope for tomorrow, Live for today
TimeToDance is my napping buddy! :) Banarama! is my big sister :) My wee loon Oli is my personal help desk! :) Mercipourlevenin is a legend!!! :)
Love_Lies_Bleeding:Tinkerdebs:pastexpiration: *fairy*dust* all make me smile :)
Thanks for all you have done guys, you mean so much to me! :)
I refuse to beleive that you are useless... I REFUSE to beleive it, because no one is useless, even though it sure feels like it. Do you volunteer? Do you have friends? Do you help people on here? Do you try to recycle? Do people you know smile when they see you? Do you have a talent? Do you have somebody that you support? if you answered yes to any ONE of those questions, then you are not useless. And since you are not useless... don't try to leave. We all mess stuff up big time, but it smooths over eventually, if you give it time. If you don't, or if you try to make it worse, it ends up a huge wrinkle... and if you leave... that wrinkle is even bigger.
Because you've cheated your family, friends, people you would have met, the community, but most of all yourself... because you shut ALL the doors too soon and locked yourself away.
*lots of hugs*
this is my magical medicine cabinet. Left to right they contain: courage, hope, calmness, and strength.
The magical part: They NEVER run out, so borrow some any time you want.
Ok maybe im not useless, but im not needed that much, they would get over me! Ah i cant stay on here any longer, its just getting worse! I NEED to sleep, im wrking soon! :( ah, thats gonna be hell, time to wear a t-shirt! :( But I CANT!!!! Not with my arms all patched up! ah, why cant i control myself, why am i scared of myself, but not a f***ing weirdo thats walks past in the street! I would be more than happy if they murdered me! Ah Im so horrible for even thinking that! I've got to go before I say anything else that I shouldnt say, as others are trying so hardto get over so much, but me, im just making a big deal out of nothing! Sorry, please just ignore this thread, if i could figure out how to, I would delete it, so please, just by pass and help someone else!!!
Sorry!
Learn from the past, Hope for tomorrow, Live for today
TimeToDance is my napping buddy! :) Banarama! is my big sister :) My wee loon Oli is my personal help desk! :) Mercipourlevenin is a legend!!! :)
Love_Lies_Bleeding:Tinkerdebs:pastexpiration: *fairy*dust* all make me smile :)
Thanks for all you have done guys, you mean so much to me! :)
I'm so sorry to hear that you're feeling like this. But please, never think that you're not worth it. People do need you, and you do help people. You often cheer me up around in F & D, which I appreciate.
Don't try and downplay your problems because somebody might be worse off than you. You deserve help and support as much as anyone.
Are you feeling any better at the moment?
*hugs again*
oh non-believer, please believe me.
is there honestly nothing in this world
that keeps you living & breathing?
you're a ghost in your own
goddamn city.
I was ok, cause I was busy at work, but now, i can feel myself slipping back, and my mum will be home soon, so I have to be happy, for her! Thanks for your concern guys, but really, just ignore me, that way I cant let you down!
Learn from the past, Hope for tomorrow, Live for today
TimeToDance is my napping buddy! :) Banarama! is my big sister :) My wee loon Oli is my personal help desk! :) Mercipourlevenin is a legend!!! :)
Love_Lies_Bleeding:Tinkerdebs:pastexpiration: *fairy*dust* all make me smile :)
Thanks for all you have done guys, you mean so much to me! :)
Why would I want to ignore you? I love you and care with all my heart that you are happy. Noone is more worthy of help than you. Many people are grateful for all you have given us. I will never ignore you - if I did I would lose the happiness you bring to me.
Another RawwwRRRRR to you!!!
"Resolve to be tender with the young, compassionate with the aged,
sympathetic with the striving, and tolerant with the weak and wrong because sometime in your life you will have been all of these."
