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isn't it funny?
how one little yes or no, one pass or fail, can tip the scales?
i feel like patchwork that's been unravelling over the last 6 years, but ive been holding together by always thinking about the next step. i got through school thinking about college, i got through my stupid degree thinking about my masters. all i can ever do is focus on the next step, thats what helps, knowing that things will eventually be better. but now what?
i have destroyed everything ive ever wanted and made a fool out of myself.
talked to my social worker on the phone and she says itll be ok but thats because my mum was with her and my mum will just fall apart if one more thing hurts her. the social worker knows im ****ed up and knows im coming undone.
il try the counsellors here tomorrow and see if they get it.
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