I want to be here but I'm scared!

[Nocebo]

I'm feeling very low. very pregnant and very alone. I'm in a very happy marriage and have 2 beautiful children already.

Yet still, I'm lonely. I'm tired, I'm hormonal and panicky.

I worry that when the baby arrives I'll still be lonely and shut in all the time. The kids have been on holiday for the past 6 weeks and we've done nothing! Financial restraints, travel limitations and me having no energy or confidence at all have all been factors.

I stopped coming to RYL a while back because I was feeling triggered a lot of the time being here. But I dont know where else to go. None of the 'mumsy' forums out there seem right for me sometimes.

I've been good to myself for over 2 years now. Having the very tiniest of slips. Recently though I want to be part of something more than my own head. My family isnt enough. (I feel the guilt of my words, believe me!)

I dont know what I'm doing anymore :(

[Sigma]

Congratulations on 2 years! That's fantastic!

Hey, there are always slips, there are always some difficult patches (and pregnancy & hormones are always going to intensify things!). Come back for a bit if it helps, that's fine, you don't lose anything, and when you're ready to move on again you will. If it's triggering, perhaps try to work out the parts of the site that are triggering and avoid them (yep, I know it's more complicated than that, but still...!). But if you need some company in how you're feeling that's normal, you don't have to feel bad about it.

Just try and take care of yourself, OK?

[~Grace~]

My children have all but grown up now, but I do remember that feeling of isolation and the guilt when you dont do anything with them through sheer exhaustion and lack of money. The summer holidays seem to be such a long time when feeling shattered and hormonal etc.
Just please tread carefully around the boards so as not to trigger yourself. There is a baby support thread in vets general that maybe of some help to you.

Congratulations on being 2 years free, thats amazing. Well done xx

[UbermoronicismAgain]

You've come so far, and done so very well.
Everybody feels isolated and alone sometimes. You know the famous phrase "Alone in a room full of people"?, well it's normal.
And you're not alone when you're here because we all know that feeling very well.

I hope you can start to feel better. It's hard I know, and sometimes feeling lonely is compounded by the idea that we can't go anywhere or afford to do anything. Talk to your Husband, I'm sure he will be as understanding as the rest of us. And maybe you can try to get out and do things that cost nothing?
Walking, picnics are relatively cheap, museums.
Lots to do out there, you just have to find it (Or google it :P).

Good luck, we're always here if you need an ear or a shoulder.

Iz x

[Nocebo]

Thankyou everyone :0) i read the posts a few days ago but wasnt feeling upto writing back. I still dont know what I'm doing!!! :(