theres nothing wrong i am just ****

[earthbound_misfit]

because im different to all of you on here
its all diffetrent for me no wonder no one understands
theres no mental health diagnosis to fit cos i dont ill just crap

i can cope if i have love and nice things but when plans go wrong i want to die
i cant cope with a normal life im useless
and i cant have love cos unloveable

**** all of you who have someone id be ok if someone loved me

Can you all show Earthbound Misfit some support please as they are going through a rough time at present.

[earthbound_misfit]

Earthbound Misfit Commit Suicide Today At 3pm

Thank **** For That

[Caru y Nos]

Is the second post meant to read "committed", or are you trying to say "Misfit will commit"? I just wanted to clarify what you were trying to say - you're clearly upset and it shows through with your post. Hence why I'm struggle to understand it a little, sorry!

Anyway...
As much as it hurts to feel unloved, suicide isn't the answer. Some of my friends will call me a hypocrite for saying this, but the pain will pass. Though, may I ask why you feel that you're unloved? What's happened? I'm here to listen - whether you want to talk here or through PM.

Take Care,
Josh.

x

[~Grace~]

I hope youre ok xx

[earthbound_misfit]

im only existing cos of my parents it seems really nasty to kill myself to them

but i cant go on any other way
and no one understands

[The Stolen One]

Do you get any professional help?

[Sigma]

a diagnosis is just a label, great if it gets you the help you need, but otherwise meaningless

but sounds like you're hurting

is there anyone you can talk to? anything that's made things worse?

[realflifefaerie]

I don't have much else to add except echo what other's have said.

I just wanted to let you know I've read and that you can PM me if you'd like.

[airwolf282]

Hey hun,

Sorry if I'm not on here much at the moment. As you know, I'm taking a break for a while so I can work on my own issues. It doesn't mean that I'm not here for you. You have my number and email address so please don't hesitate to contact me if you want to talk to someone that will listen.

The fact that your parents love is keeping you going is great to hear. It means that you acknowledge that people do care about you, you are loved. I just wish you had more love and support right now so you could see just how loveable you really are. When I got to the second post you made I felt sick inside, my heart sank and I felt nauseated. I thought I'd lost you but was very much relieved to see that you had wrote another later on. Thank Christ you are physically ok.

You can talk to us honey. You can talk to me. I don't know what is making you feel so unloved but you never know..........someone else here may have been through a similar thing. Some people here may understand your pain but you won't know unless you open up. (When you're ready of course, I'm not pushing you). I know I felt unloveable for a very long time but that does pass I can promise you. From the pics I have seen of you and our conversations I can tell that you are a beautiful, loving, kind, attractive and sensitive type of person and there is no reason in the world why someone wouldn't love you.

I agree with what Andrea says, a label doesn't mean much unless you are getting treatment. I know it's very hard to find that because the NHS is useless but you have to keep fighting them honey. Make them earn their pay.

Please please hold on sweetie. Many people here care about you including me, please don't leave us. Like I said earlier, I wish I wasn't on the other side of the world so I could be there and give you a big hug.

Take care hun and stay safe.

Love and hugs,


Nathan xx

[earthbound_misfit]

its not my parents love keeping me going, in fact my mum is making it worse.
I just knew my dad would be upset if I was dead and probly feel guilty for not giving me the money I need.

it pisses me off though that ppl would have so many regrets but dont ****ing think of that now while they could still help

and as for not fitting a diagnosis thats cos there isnt one for just being a **** useless person

if i had the money to do what im meant to be doing now ie going back to malaysia then starting nurse training (trainings free just need dosh for asia) then id be fine. better than fine.

i have lost everything, friends, home, i have to live with folks after 6 years 300 miles away its awful n im so lonely
but i was willing to put up with it to save money
but i cant get a ****ing job, its too late now

and dont even think of saying well maybe in time THERE ISNT ****ING TIME LEFT NOW IM SUPPOSED TO BE GOING IN NOVEMBER

or saying about changin plans cos im sick of my life being screwd up i would just like something to work out, all the hardships i go thru, the loneliness the pain the **** from people, i just wish SOMETHING would ****ing work

but thats life, which is why i dont want to do it, im no good at it, if things worked id be ok, ive learnt to deal with **** but i need something to work out

if i dont get either of the jobs today im going to end it
sorry people thanks for caring but im not like you
i am not good enough, im not considered ill, just crap

[earthbound_misfit]

have just re read that post i sound so ****ing selfish wanting money but i was willing to earn it i just cant seem to
another reason i should be dead everyones better without me really