Triggering (SI) - How does your period interact with your SI?
So it's that time of the month again - huzzah - and I was just wondering if anyone else feels how I do about cutting when they're having their period. I have never cut when I'm menstruating and I don't think I even think about it, especially when it's heavy and painful - which is pretty much always. Maybe the sight of blood or maybe the pain satisfy whatever it is in me that wants to cut.
How about with your depression or other mental illness? How's it effect that? I think that I have a harder time with PMS because I already have a lot of random anger and anxiety anyway. Today I feel like I'm dying. I just want to curl up and be nursed. I have so much work to do, I can't even think.
I think it affects me quite a lot. Like you say, I suppose a lot of us struggle with our emotions at the best of times, so when all those hormones and cramps kick in on top of that we can get pretty low.
Personally I don't harm much now anyway, but I do find it affects my mood a lot.
its usually HELL for me. my emotions are all over the place. they told me i have PMDD....so what??? just another label to add to the list. and they prescribe zoloft for that or yas. i already take zoloft so go figure.
im not good on words today....but periods make me feel like ****.
xxx
I am very sensitive for the week before and for the day before and first day or so I am incredibly irritable. My SI urges are probably worse the week before although the difference is not huge. damn periods.
Yep, my symptoms definitely verge on the psychotic. I can dissociate a lot when I'm having my period. The week before I am always easily triggered and have cutting on the brain. Maybe I have PMDD. I do get insane cramps and other extreme symptoms.
The days just before i get my period, i am a wreck. A depressed, selfviolent, wreck. I hate those times. I will cry for hours, i will want to destroy myself, i get even more suicidal, its dreadful.
My mood swings are really extreme just before hand and this can mean more SH during that time. I guess I become more impulsive too in my actions. Its just a shitty week before my period is due where anything can happen and usually does.......
Personally, I'm lucky and I've never suffered with my periods, they're inconvenient but that's about it.
Do you think there might be something your doctor could do to help with the effect your periods have on your depression? Sometimes the pill can make it worse but maybe the jab or the implant might be able to calm the effects? Perhaps discuss it with a female doctor next time you have to go anyway?
my body is all over the place time wise, and i am frequently weeks late. only it seems i start pms-ing when im due. and it stays till my period starts. im not sure whether it makes me more depressed or if its just really bad pms for a prolonged time. plus the added worry of oh **** im late.
on another note... my mum gave me a random piece of advice the other day when talking about waxing, which was that she had always been told not to wax your legs (or pluck eye brows or anything) when you are on or due on your period because you feel the pain more. im guessing it applies to any pain.
If I pretended I was blind
And struck it from my mind
Would it still be there?
What if I'd do anything
To make it seem all right
I finally got Lei'd in Vets....It was an enjoyable experience!
I get really bad PMT (PMS). So much so it affected my work, my family life, my social life, even my driving. I was such a nasty bitch for the week, then it went on to the two weeks before!
And not only that, I cut, and cut anc cut.....
And then during my period I had horrendous pain, really heavy bleeding, and all I wanted to do was curl up in my duvet or stay in a bath all week.
So basically I had one week per month when I was human.
So I went to my GP and he gave me some really strong pain killers for the cramps (that also lessen the bleeding) and some prozac for the PMT (it had been recently relicenced in the UK to allow it to be used for that). And now they don't affect me as much as they did. I may have a day or two of being snappy, but nowhere near the violence of before (which is good because I collect swords and axes - opps!), I haven't cut because of PMT for a long time, and the painkillers are great.
But yeah, I hate being a woman!
Lozx
You don't have to be a monkey to recognize a banana!
premenstrual now and feel like cutting to the extreme! get really angry and irrational prior to getting period and feel even worse if I take it out on anyone else so try to hold in the rage, makes me feel like hurting myself though and I get very depressed, so yeah just a tad mood swingy.
like you though, once my period is there I generally am fine and dont want to cut, must be the whole blood releasing thing and maybe im in enough pain with cramps and bloating anyway so dont need to feel more.Glad this topic came up coz its relevant to me right now and thought I was insane in the membrane lol!
take care xx
This is so interesting! I'm glad I'm not the only one. The other day, while on my period, I dissociated (a rare thing for me) and was sitting at my laptop staring at my hands, perfectly still, for a long time. I even had borderline hallucinations. Makes me worry about my sanity.
I can't take the pill, I get too anxious because my mum told me loads of horror stories about it. Plus it makes you gain weight and I really don't need that right now. I have polycystic ovaries so my pains are linked to that and when I try to get help for it I'm either told to lose weight or take medication I don't want to take. So I'm stuck like this till after I finish my degree (end of August) when I can stop binging and start going swimming again. Weight loss always fixes it for me.
- and I was just wondering if anyone else feels how I do about cutting when they're having their period. I have never cut when I'm menstruating and I don't think I even think about it, especially when it's heavy and painful - which is pretty much always. Maybe the sight of blood or maybe the pain satisfy whatever it is in me that wants to cut. 
