need cheering up, losing hope..... *not sure of lable*
hey. okay, so i recently had my second therapy appointment, and it went okay i guess. im still not sure how much i can really trust her, so i still havent told her Everything…………I dont think that therapy will be enough for me to stop SI…
im starting to lose the last little bit of hope i have left. im getting so tired of trying to stop SI. i just want this to end, but im at the point now that i dont even want to try anymore………
can anyone relate? and how do i overcome this? how do i get better when im tired of trying?! i need some cheering up…
Well done for going to the therapy. It's still early days so try and give it a decent shot before you start saying that it's not working. Hopefully you will build up a good relationship with your therapist and start to trust them. They can't help you affectively unless they know the whole story.
What is it that you're withholding and why?
I know you're tired but keep pushing. You can do it. Recovery is difficult, you have to learn to love yourself and it takes some serious hard work, but try and focus on the good things that will come out of this. All the proper funtimes you can have, no more hiding, no more guilt, no more lies.
Hi Katey
*hugs*
Like Luce says hon this is only your second therpay appointment and it does take time to build that relationship up. Think of therapy as another weapon in your armour against self harm. Everything you have tried up until now to beat this woill have helped in some way even if it's to show you something that didn't work. The way I see it hon you're still on your recovery journey. Perhaps something to aim for in your next therapy session would be to tell your therapist your worries about therapy to see if she can put your mind at rest? Therapy may not work on it's own honey, there may be some other work for you to do but hopefully you and your therapist can work to together to negotiate that.
Good luck, don't give up and if you ever want to chat I'll be a PM away Katey.
Take care!
Kiran
xx
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well i can relate but you've done the right thing in trying therapy
i know it is tiresome to keep trying to stop but the key to overcoming it is never to give up and let fate take course
you have to push and opush and push to the maximum and seek the benefits of the hard work
sadly it doesnt just go awya and we have to achknowledge a lot of things in life to deal with it and get over it
no matter how tired you get you cant give up trying
*hugs*
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Believe in yourself and your dreams. For when you do. You can achieve anything!
to answer you, chrysalis, i havent told my therapist how depressed i truely am. i told her im depressed, but not how badly. i havent told her that im suicidal, cause im scared of what she will do. i dont want my parents to know. i also havent told her that i started smoking cigarettes in july, or that i want to try pot. im just afraid that she will have to tell my parents because of the whole "i have to tell someone if you plan on harming yourself, or others". and smoking cigarettes causes harm to my lungs, and being suicidal means she'll most likely have to tell my parents.
so far, therapy just seems pointless.
.........im not even sure if i even want to get better anymore. :/
thanks for the hugs everyone. *hugs back*
<3 katey
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yeah, maybe. im still not quite sure if i want to stay with her or try someone else. i mean, she is nice and all, but idk theres just something that i feel isnt clicking. ya know?
well i get on with my counselor just fine
but i've had psych's i'e really not gotten on with
so maybe try another if you dont feel comfortable with her
The Soul Would Have No Rainbows If The Eyes Had Shed No Tears
[Laurel Burch]
Believe in yourself and your dreams. For when you do. You can achieve anything!
maybe.....im not very close to either of my parents. and my mom keeps asking how im doing, and how the sessions are going, and i just say "fine" or "okay" cause i dont like talking about it to her, and she knows that but dosnt stop asking questions.
if i tell her i want to see someone else then she will ask a bunch of questions why not and i know i wont have all the answers she wants. :/
