New meds and possible inpatient..

EmTeeEm · 26-07-2007, 11:27 PM

I was talking to my psychiatrist at the hospital about my review that is coming up (Monday 30th) and what she wanted to suggest. I was just wondering if anyone has been on mirtazapine? It'll be my fourth a/d but I've been reading up and have seen all the weight gain/increased appetite side effects and it's more than put me off (as I struggle with an ED)

Her second point was to raise inpatient treatment as a possible treatment. I'm at the point where I couldn't care what they did to me. I'm suicidal constantly and am constantly finding new lows and falling further. the situation at best is hopeless. Should I just surrender? I have nothing to lose. My issue is my parents reaction. They're in the meeting.

Any help would be lovely..
Sorry again for posting pointlessly xx

Stellata · 27-07-2007, 09:33 AM

Hi! I'm on mirtazapine, and have been for 2 years in October. I've had no issues with weight gain or appetite increase, except to a normal level after no appetite and very low weight whilst very ill with depression before and during efexor. I've found I've been much more stable on mirtazapine [therapy helps though, also] and my GP thinks its the best thing ever for me!

one_step_closer · 28-07-2007, 10:35 AM

When I was on Mirtazapine all it did was help me to sleep, which I guess is a good thing though. I did have an increased appetite, but I don't think that it's a problem for everyone. Do you think that antidepressants will be of any benefit to you considering this will be your fourth one? Despite all the malarky, all antidepressants have been found to be equally effective, maybe they're not for you?

If you feel that inpatient might be a positive step for you then go for it, it's worth a try. How do you think your parents might react? At the end of the day this is about you and your health. Do whatever you think is best for you. I hope that it goes well, please keep us updated. Get in touch any time. Take care. xxx

EmTeeEm · 28-07-2007, 11:17 AM

Parent's searched my room sometime yesterday morning or thursday night. All my blades/pills have gone. Considering the possible IP, I can't see this helping in any way. Hospitalisation would be for my "safety", their findings just proove I'm unsafe. Don't know what to do anymore. Spent yesterday drinking with a friend then ended up wandering round victoria train station, sat in the toilets cutting and then when I did manage to get the the platform I ended up unconciously trying to claw my skin off, much to the horror of all the other waiting passengers. I'm just sore, tired and I so so wish I hadn't promised to try recovery once more. I should be dead by now.

Stellata · 28-07-2007, 06:21 PM

From my experience, mirtazapine can really help you when you are in that kind of state. ((gentle hug))

EmTeeEm · 28-07-2007, 09:13 PM

I don't trust and they don't trust me, when I step back I can see that sounds awful. I love my mum and dad to bits I just don't trust anyone not even them. Adds the the overall lonliness. To die would stop their room searches and their mistrust. I've let them down so much already. Finish it.