I'm not sure if this is in the right place but I always feel like my dad is always trying to force me to do things !
Like seems like he wants control over me ,
He wants me to go and see him and I dont want to because I litrally am skint and idk.
Hes messed with my head when I was a kid but he just seems to continue.
When I was a kid he used to mentally and physically abuse me .
The Physical abuse has stopped now mainly because He knows that if he was ever to lay a finger on me I'd knock him out ,
but the emotional stuff hes still doin and Its confusing and triggering me !
Hes told me to get my prioritys right and cancel my holiday and go and see him ,
hes always just making out everything that happens is my fault .
I cant do anything right I can never live up to my little sister(20) and brother(11).
they are both perfect children .
I am not ! .
I am no good.
I am not at uni ,
I didnt get good grades ,
the things my dad did when i was young messed me up .
i am just a freak .
sory this is just ramblling .
there is something that happend with an ex once .
but i am not sure that i can put it here .
if anyones got any advice with what i can do to make him stop being so contolling.
