Triggering (SI/ED) - May be triggering.:.Depression and Panic/Anxiety Attacks

[littlebylittle_daybyday]

i suffer from manic Depression. i'm on Cymbalta but its not really working. it will work for about a month and ddthen my body gets used to it. this has happened with all other medicines i have been put on. i fear there is somethign going on in my mind, worst than the depression. im constantly having panic and anxiety attacks. the other day i had one in walmart when somebody came over the loudspeaker. i freaked and started gettign paranoid and i stopped breathing. i feel on the floor and the worst thing was, as i was laying there having an attack and nearly choking on my own breath, people just kept walking by me. i dont understand what's going on, i've always had panic and anxiety attacks, but they are getting far worst. the doctors say that the other medicines im on should help them but they are, as everything else is, ineffective.

I've gotten to the point where i can no longer deal with myself, and im going insane. i cant sleep, i cant eat, and when i DO eat, I suffer from bulimia. I weigh x amount and see somebody in the mirror that weighs a lot more. I am seeing a therapist, but I just cant stop my thoughts.. i dont know what to do. i'm either si-ing or suffering from ed.

i've run out of options. i dont know what to do anymore...

[sherlock holmes]

Have you told all of this to your therapist? She should be able to give you some techniques to deal with your anxiety. If you start to feel anxious and your breathing goes funny, breathe in through the nose for seven counts and out through the mouth for eleven. Keep doing this until you are breathing normally again, it helps me.

[Sunshine]

im sorry you are having a rough time at the moment, with the panick attacks i was having them twice a day at one point and used to get the point where i just wasnt breathing but you just have to try and remember that you cant die from a panick attack the worst that will happen is that you will faint and then your breathing will return to normal. I know its horrible when people walk past or cross the road to get away from you but thats probably because they are scared or just horrible people. try not to think its because you arent worth helping because that will just make things worse! although i know its quite hard to think like that. I was never put on medication to help with my panick attacks but i worked with my psychologist and i just kind of learnt how to control them with time. i can tell when one is coming and i can start my deep breathing before it actually happens and calm myself down. im not saying they have stopped completly because they havnt but they have gone down alot and dont last as long.
i realy hope things get better for you
xxx

[littlebylittle_daybyday]

i can't tel my therapist because i am not certified to talk to her alone. i am only 15 and under the age of 18 , minors ar not allowed in the rooms without a parent. if i tell her and my mom is with me she'll freak and make things worst. she always seems tot hink im faking them when i get them. i've tried doing deep breathign exercises but the only thing that can calm me down when im abotu to have one is a cigarette and obvously, they are bad for me.

[sherlock holmes]

Someone told me the only reason a cigarette calms you down when you feel panicky is because you actually breathe slowly and deeply when you have one, just like deep breathing exercises. It would be useful to try the breathing instead of smoking.

[littlebylittle_daybyday]

alright, i will try it. i guess when im just breathing it doesnt seem to work but i have it in my head that cig.z help so yeah. idk. i just. i feel hopeless...and lost..i dont know what to do at all.