An update. I came here to check pm's, and ended up posting
Well, This summer I made a friend called Sarah (we knew each other from school,. But we’ve got really really close this summer). Shes in the year above, and she knows everything about my si. I told her, coz I trust her, and I know I can tell her everything. Only thing is, I fucking lied, didn’t I. I told her I had stopped
Shes lovely. She took me out for coffee the other day and we had a really really good talk about stuff, for about 3 hours. She told me stuff, about losing friends and not being able to trust people, and told her stuff. Im scared. What if she finds out? I’m so so fucking stupid. Arrgfh, Ignore me, Idk why I made this post. I just wanted to let you know how Im doing, I guess.
No. I havent stopped. I feel fat and triggered and eugh. I tried to tell someone, a friend, (Not sarah) over msn, and I freaked her out. She said she had to go. I spoke to her yesterday, and she siad she’d worked it out, and I said "oh, L " and she just said "ok" and when I told her I was sorry, she just said "ok"
She’ll see, on the 5th of september. We’re going out then. Theres about 8 of us. I HAVE to go. I cant get out of it. Arrghhh
I’m a pathetic bitch. Apparently. And I’m starting to believe that more and more now.
Bethannyyyy :D
I'm glad you made a new friend, you're not a pathetic bitch at all. :)
If you trust her and everything, tell her the truth. (: She sounds understanding and all.
but what if she doesnt see it how I do. SHe kept saying how its all in the past and everything. I DO trust her. Shes the only person I trust though, and I cant lose that
I am a pathetic bitch. It wouldnt have been said otherwise. " You are so pathetic that you have to mess around with other peoples happiness"
I am sure she will understand if you sit her down and explain that you were not strong enough at that point to tell her, but now you are. If she knows the truth, she will be more able to support you in what you are going through, and will know not to refer to it as being in the past.
I hope you stay safe in the mean time *hugs* be gentle with yourself.
Roiben x
If the Human brain were so simple that we could understand it, we would be so simple that we wouldn't.
As others have said I'm sure she will understand why you initially said you'd stopped. However, what matters is you've found the courage to tell her the truth and hopefully this will mean she can support you even more. Please don't see it as a bad thing.
firstly i hope you have a nice holiday and secondly you dont have to tell her but it would be better to be honest with her so she can maybe support you and she would be hurt if you didnt tell her but its upto you if you tell her or not .
i know she'll be hurt if she knows i lied
but she'll also be hurt if she finds out out me still doing it. Im seeing her in costa coffee, so i cant tell her then, and she'll want to see. fuck. what do i do?
but she'll also be hurt if she finds out im still doing it. Im seeing her in costa coffee, so i cant tell her then, and she'll want to see. fuck. what do i do?
your not stupid
when i first met one f my best friends i told her i used to self ahrm
even though i still did
i mean she eventually found out i was still doing it
and she understood but she didnt know why i told ehr i stopped
she would have accepted me even if i admitted to still doing it
maybe sarah will see things the same way
:)
so just find a way of telling her somewhen
m,aybe not in costa though
The Soul Would Have No Rainbows If The Eyes Had Shed No Tears
[Laurel Burch]
Believe in yourself and your dreams. For when you do. You can achieve anything!
um... do you have her email address?
maybe email her saying it... or write her a letter and give ehr a letter
no your not stupid!!! your really not!!!
and im sure she wont tell anyone not even in a drunken conversation
i'm sure if she swears she wont tell anyone it emans she wont even when drink is in the mix
The Soul Would Have No Rainbows If The Eyes Had Shed No Tears
[Laurel Burch]
Believe in yourself and your dreams. For when you do. You can achieve anything!
Idk if i can tell her. Im really not. The lsat person i told (well, my "best" friends havent spoken to me since, but most of my year now and i found out last week they think im showing it off, etc
It took months for me to go without a jumper, and i HAD to, or I'd have fainted in the heat, so I had to, and i get this.
i knwo its scary
but i think you need to be able to tell somebody you see in life and she sounds lkike the person to tell
she knows you've done it in thwe past
and shes accepted you anyways
so now you need to progress and confess its still a current problem
and more than anything my guess is that hse'll want to help you hun
The Soul Would Have No Rainbows If The Eyes Had Shed No Tears
[Laurel Burch]
Believe in yourself and your dreams. For when you do. You can achieve anything!
