Triggering (OD) - services are giving up on me. i cant cope.

[tweety pie 84]

services are threatening to pull out. We were talking about things and how i find it extremley difficult to open up, purely because i spend every waking minute trying not think about this stuff. I KNOW if i do start talking im going to flip big time. And she proceeded to say that if i dont, then services will pull out saying there is nothing else they can do for me. I know it makes sense logically but ive totally lost it today because of it, and even if i feel suicidal they would just leave me to it as there is nothing they can do.

I feel like they are giving up on me. I gave up on myself a long time ago, but to hear that the mental health services are giving up on me too, well that just cut deep. I guess i wanted saving and they may as well have said im not worth it.

Im just totally loosing the plot today, i went to sleep for a couple of hours purely to avoid od'ing. But now im back to square one. The main reason im trying to stop myself is because my mum has LOADS of OU work to do and it would really really selfish of me to kill myself right now. But at the same time i dont know how to cope with this.

I dont know what to do

[Becca]

I've had a similar experience. I have found a brilliant advocate who is willing to attend all my appointments with me and since then comments like that have stopped. Have you tried advocacy? I know it's another person involved and in the room with you, which can be really hard *but* personally I found it easier talking to someone removed from MH services who could then help communicate some of the problems I have to MH services.

Take care,
x

[88shelz]

i can understand how hard it is to open up..
but the whole point of therapy is to help you which means without opening up you arent going to get much from it...hence why they would wnat to to pull you out of the system

perhaps talk to your doctor and come to an agreement of what work you can do together if any right now and where you want to end the work.

therapy is never going to be easy sweetie but it will help you.
it may be hard at the start and cause you to feel orse but in the end you will bee happy that you gave it a go

[~Grace~]

hugs xx
i had the same happen to me.

[Buttercup.]

Maybe you could try writing a letter to them explaining WHY it is difficult for you to open up. I mean it is true that if you don't want help, you can't be helped. But I know that you do want help..there is at least a small piece of you that hasn't given up hope yet, as you are here on a recovery website. I have trouble opening up with people too. I tried to explain it to her in writing and now she is coming up with different ideas of how to help me. You can do this. Nobody is giving up on you. You can do this.

Jess x