Triggering (SI/Suicide) - It's Really Been quite a while..:/

[lilyespererx]

I don't even remember how to post here, that's how long it's been.

I just don't know what to do anymore.
I'm cutting most nights, and my mom's growing suspicious again.
I'm to the point tonight, that I'm feeling nearly like I'm going to black out. I'm dizzy and I feel sick, but I don't know why. I'm just wanting this all to be over.

I feel like I need to die. Like I have to, because I don't belong.

I feel so selfish and rude. Because no matter how hard I try, I can only ever think about how f'ed up my life is.

I really want to be dead right now, I hate this.

I guess what I need is someone to talk to, I can't talk to my family and my friends all expect this happy go lucky girl.
I just can't deal with this. :/

[88shelz]

hugs
what exactly is it you cannot deal with?
it sounds like you need to get those wounds seen to as the symptoms say you have lost alot of blood.

talk to us here. maybe we can help.
xx

[lilyespererx]

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Originally Posted by 88shelz

hugs
what exactly is it you cannot deal with?
it sounds like you need to get those wounds seen to as the symptoms say you have lost alot of blood.

talk to us here. maybe we can help.
xx

*hugs*

Sorry I can't fiugre out the reply system; I 've totally forgotten V_V
I wouuld go to the doctor...but I don't want anybody to know.

I can't deal with my sister, I can't deal with going back to school, I can't deal with the fact that I'm a wretched person.

Ugh. :/

Thanks.(:

[88shelz]

there is confidentiality rules that the doctor has to adhere to.
as long as you are not in a life threatning situation that needs people to know then no one else but you and your doctor will know unless you choose to tell them.

is it possible to chat to your sister about how you are feeling right now towards her and see if you can resolves what is bothering you between the two of you - or is there any way you two are able to be apart for a while til you feel more at ease around her?

as for school all i can suggest is asking for some extra support and confiding in a teacher or school counsellor/nurse about the problems school is bringing you!

there should be a support system in place to help school life be as comfortable as possible.

[Katiee]

Hey hun,
I'm sorry you're struggling so much lately! *hugs*
Did you say you had any professional help, like a psych/counsellor you could talk to? Also try use distractions instead of cutting, hun, keep yourself busy? I'm always on msn if you wanna talk. Hope you're alright. xo