eating worried

havealittlefaith · 15-08-2009, 09:03 PM

eating worried

im worried about my eating. i starve myself then when i eat i purge. i cant stop myself. i dont know what to do.i cant tell anyone. its one of the only things i can control. i know its not good.im worried im gonna do damage to myself.am i right to be worried?

I.Heart.And · 15-08-2009, 10:12 PM

It is right to be worried, you can and will do damage to yourself if you carry on. What do you feel you are not in control of that brings you to seek control with your eating and purging? It would be better to work on that than to make yourself ill my starving and purging. It's really not a good road to go down.

havealittlefaith · 15-08-2009, 10:17 PM

im not in control of my life i cant be and sounds stupid but my i cant cut now coz my parents will be suspious and i cant od coz they will be suspitious but i can do this and they dont know. i cant control anything else in my life. i need something i can control. someway to hurt myself. for not been a nice person and for hating my self and letting people treat me bad.

I.Heart.And · 15-08-2009, 10:20 PM

You are a nice person and you don't deserve to be hated by anyone, especially yourself. It is never your fault that people have treated you badly, it's their fault and shouldn't have happened. You haven't done anything wrong, nor do you deserve to be punished.
You are a good person.

havealittlefaith · 15-08-2009, 10:23 PM

i done too many bad things. i guess its my fault . im evil.

I.Heart.And · 15-08-2009, 10:25 PM

No, not at all. You aren't evil

Everybody makes mistakes. You aren't a bad person.

havealittlefaith · 15-08-2009, 10:29 PM

i am coz of what i want to do and i been trying not to and this is me trying to be that evil. maybe i shouldnt do or think any of this and even though im not tired maybe i should go to bed .idk.

PassedExpectations · 16-08-2009, 12:57 AM

As long as you fight it you cannot possibly be evil... I doubt that you could be evil if you didn't fight it.

And you are right to be worried.

Katiee · 16-08-2009, 01:02 AM

Yes, I think you're right to be worried. Hun, you need to tell someone about this. You can get help. Could you maybe write it down and give it to someone who can help? Hope you're alright. I'm always here. xo.