I know I'm not manic, I'm not doing or thinking about doing any of the things I do when I'm manic, but I'm feeling very stressed and everything, which is leading to self-harm and that. I have exams next week, my dad is dying (good), a load of my financial paperwork has been lost by someone I trusted it to, which has application forms and evidence for loads of different things, just general rubbish life stuff.
Now I feel like I can't mention it to my team, in case they think I'm manic, which I'm not. I'm not pretending to be, I don't want to be, I'm having an anxiety? episode outside of that.
Do you have to be healthy, when you're not manic?
(I only have manic episodes, I have never experienced a low)
It could literally be stress, nothing more, nothing less.
When you're not manic you can be hypomanic, stable (& stable with stress and or anxiety etc) or depressed, depressed and psychotic, manic and psychotic etc.
Stress doesn't mean mania though. They are completely different things.
You may just be reacting naturally to life stressors minus any psychiatric symptoms.
Well I'd argue that a mood disorder is only a mood disorder when the emotions are disproportionate to the situation. You've got a lot on your plate right now and whilst self harm may not be the most healthy of coping strategies to feel stressed and anxious in the situations you are describing is how I'd expect most people in your situation to feel.
I'd mention it to your team, they may be able to teach you some relaxation techniques or find other ways to help you cope.
Don't have much to offer atm, but hope your okay petal xxx
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
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You've made me feel more at ease. I thought it was 'just' stress, so wondering whether to mention it to team. Although I wouldn't say damaging muscle, tendons and my other SHing behaviours were 'normal' Morrigan. I have friends who are stressed and don't do what I do, anyway.
I don't know. Maybe I should stop whinging. The point of the post was whether to mention it all to CPN, and I guess the point is no.
aarrgh, now I'm worrying you'll take what I said and think I was being sarcastic or mean or anything, I honestly wasn't. I posted for advice, and you gave me it and reassured me and for that I am grateful thank you!
