Triggering (SI) - HELP! What's happening to me?! *SI/Substance abuse triggers*

[My_Name_Is_Aiden]

plz help, i don't know whats wrong with me!
i'm a self-harmer and heavy drinker, but i havent done either for two days now which is a really big deal for me. i was feeling ok but then today i went to the supermarket to get some food for dinner and i just, like freaked out or something! i saw the alcohol aisle and suddenly felt all shaky and like i couldnt breathe properly, my fists clenched and wouldnt stop for ages, and i still feel scared and weird now i'm back at home. was this some kind of panic attack?

i was by myself so no one else knows and i cant tell my sister who i live with becos she has too many problems of her own and im meant to be the one who looks after her! she cant know that her big brother is falling apart like this... wtf is wrong with me?!

[whirlpools]

Those sound like possible symptoms of a panic attack to me. Lots of people have panic attacks and it's nothing to be ashamed of. Maybe you could see your GP and ask if there are any therapies you could access to help you with this, along with your self harm and substance abuse issues?

[My_Name_Is_Aiden]

oh fuk, are you sure? i can't have panic attacks! my sister can barely leave the house because of hers. who will take care of her if i get them too? this is just so fukking bad!

[Sunshine]

they do sound like panick attacks, but i think you should ask someone like your doctor because i dont think its a good idea to kind of diagnose yourself because you might be getting upset when there is no need to. and just because you have had one panick attack doesnt nesecarly mean you will get them regulary or very severly like your sister, it could just have been a one off. but i think its a good idea to talk to your doctor about it if your worried.
hope you feel better soon
xxx

[My_Name_Is_Aiden]

my doctor, yeah ok... fuk this is triggering me so badly!

thanks for the advice

[whirlpools]

Please don't be too worried, I'd say probably most people have had a panic attack at some time in their lives (if that is what they are) and also they can get better. I had panic attacks from the age of eight was was agoraphobic from the ages of thirteen to eighteen but I hardly ever have them now and I can go out. There is hope!

[88shelz]

panick attacks effect everyone in different ways...
if it is a panick attack your doc wil be able to preescribe some pills to help you feel more calm.
its better to get help for them now