Is This Ridiculous, or Rational? - Alcohol Question
(Just a note, this is my alternate account. I feel a bit dumb and embarrassed for asking this.)
Alright, I'll get right to the point. Two months ago, I drank for the first time. I had about 5 drinks (I think...) and was pretty smashed. Ever since then, I have craved alcohol on a fairly regular basis. I decided to make this thread tonight, because the craving is seriously almost unbearable. If there were any way I could get some alcohol, I would. I haven't had anything since that night, due to simply not being able to get my hands on any.
My uncle is an alcoholic, and I seem to have the sort of personality that is a bit prone to addiction. I feel as if I am already addicted to alcohol even though I've only had it once. Is that even possible? I know I don't fit the definition of an alcoholic, as it seems to be mainly based around habits and such. But I sure feel like one :/
I feel ridiculous "admitting" this, because maybe it's just nothing anyway. Does anyone have any insight, or advice? I'd greatly appreciate anything. Thanks. xx
1. What kind of environment were you in when you drank? Were you with people you felt comfortable with, or alone? Was it a pleasant atmosphere?
2. Did you like the taste of the alcohol?
3. How did you feel when you were drunk?
4. Was the sensation of being drunk markedly different to your day-to-day life?
I thought I'd ask these questions, but it sounds possible that being drunk was a new experience for you, and there was something positive inherent in it that you want to recreate. It may not be the alcohol, but the context, or a combination of both. It is, obviously, not possible to develop physical addiction to alcohol in that space of time, but you have formed some psychological link.
I'd say if you feel you have an addictive personality, you might want to avoid such substances.
I agree with the above, and you do sound like you have an addictive personality. To be honest, i feel exactly the same at the mojo, that i need to drink, to not be sober. You can't be physically addicted after that one time but in your head, you crave that feeling and experience again. If you trust yourself, continue drinking normally like your peers, but after a bad experience with alcohol (which, trust me, will happen sooner or later:P), you may feel A LOT differently.
Thats all i can say for now, let me know how the next few weeks go, PM if you like :)
xoxo
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1. What kind of environment were you in when you drank? Were you with people you felt comfortable with, or alone? Was it a pleasant atmosphere? - At a friend's party; I felt pretty comfortable around most of the people there; good atmosphere. 2. Did you like the taste of the alcohol? - Not really, but in an odd way I liked it simply because it was...different. After a couple drinks I really didn't mind too much lol. 3. How did you feel when you were drunk? - Much, much more comfortable and sociable that I usually am. I felt completely comfortable talking to people I barely knew, and I loved the feeling. It was really fun feeling like my "Awkward Wall" finally came down for a bit. Just felt free. Though, I might mention the fact that after a couple hours or so, I had a small "mental breakdown" of sorts...ended up curled up on the floor crying hysterically about how f*cked-up I was and was just really messed up. Stupid as I am, I am still convinced that the good outweighs the bad. 4. Was the sensation of being drunk markedly different to your day-to-day life? As I already talked about, yeah - very. While I'm not a total hermit and human-avoider, I'm just generally fairly introverted and don't do a lot of socializing. I felt different, and free in a way.
I guess it's a combination of the social aspect and the effect of alcohol that makes me crave it. I can't deny that I really liked the feeling of being drunk.
no, it doesnt sound much my friend. excessive drinking on regular basis doesnt actually make you an alcoholic authomatically. i have many friends who drink at every social occasion they attend, and that's about 3/4 times a week. but they can handle themselves and only drink on social occasions, and the drinking is relatively controlled
however if you turn to alcohol regularly when you encounter problems, or find that you need to drink even when alone, then you might be onto something there. but alcoholism really only develop after sustained long term drinking. you, i think, just like the taste of beer too much lol so dont worry
and being drunk may gave you the sense of no longer being attached to your problems, but all it does is alleviate your sense of responsibility. becareful,
Last edited by Just.a.normal.guy : 18-08-2009 at 07:45 PM.
You can't form a real dependence on alcohol from a one off event, you certainly can't become physically addicted to it. It is not really a surprise you enjoyed being drunk, a lot of people do if not most but i would say its that you want.
Alcoholism is a far more complicated beast and arises in people for different reasons but i don't think, certainly from my own experience it is merely liking the care free, dare i say happy sensation it brings, I could be wrong but that doesn't happen often. ;)
Last edited by BarrelO'Crazy : 18-08-2009 at 08:19 PM.
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I know what you mean with this; I had a similar thing when I got stoned for the first time. It isn't an addiction, it is more a psychological thing where you find that you like the expereince and want to repeat it. I don't readily have access to pot, so it doesn't matter too much, but I think if anything, it might be a sign of an addictive personality, in which case just be aware of it. But there is no way you can become an alcoholic just from your first drink, it is something that builds up over time, on the other hand, some people may have a greater disposition towards substance abuse problems, and addictive behaviours in general.
Random radio ___________This spiral
Static on tv ____________Has worn a groove so deep
Losing count of _________Can’t climb out
All the days and weeks ___Pathetic, painful need
i have this experience with alcohol too, and drugs that i have tried. and i have addiction in my family too *hugs*
i think its more of a psychological thing, like.. i liked myself better when im drunk\stoned. i like that i can talk to everybody, i like that im less self conscious.. i like that i can be honest, i like that i can open up.
all the things i CANT do when im sober
it might be a good idea to avoid alcohol for a while, or talk to a counsellor or something, it might even be a selfesteem issue? i know it is for me
i hope you are ok
xo
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