sorry this is long (so you dont have to read it)
I just saw my best friend and i was thinking how proud i am of her for moving on and getting on with her life and just being so amazing and changed from the person i first met and then i thought....
well i've changed to! im no longer constantly attempting suicide, it will have been 1 year in 2 weeks since i was put in hospital for a seirous suicide attempt!...so i may have tried attempts since then but mostly ive stopped myself and got help!...so i still feel so unhappy and unpset and dispear and i still automatically think of suicide as the only option, but i hardly act on it anymore not as much as i used to! so i have moved on! not totally, i still have porblems i still think about suicide an awful lot but i dont act on it nearly as much and thats a big thing for me! i have changed!
and im slowly becoming better and better with the help of my friends, family and perfessionals im going to make it! im not going to be stuck like this for the rest of my life (although it sometimes feels it) i have got slightly better and i will try and remember that when things get tough! i will try and remember that things can get better.
im changing and im changing for the better
thank you if you read this
xxx
