Due to changes in mental health I was changed from the short term team to the long term team called recovery so I got a new social worker and consultant, who has now left so I have a new one I havent met, although the new social worker is ok to talk to she is crap at her job she says self harm is just self harm and when I told her I was feeling suicidel and had brought a load of pills she said ring the samaritons I am really struggling dealing with flashbacks and nightmares due to abuse and rape as a child I am waiting to see a psychologist but there is a wait as there is only one and she works part time I find it really hard to ask for help for fear of rejection due to past I blame my body for letting me down which is why I self harm most days sorry for going on but I needed to talk.
