Hey hey.
Welcome to RYL, and well done for posting - I hope it's helped a little. I get what you mean about not wanting other people to have upset you. But it's totally, 100% normal to be affected by the things that other people do and say, I don't think there's really any way of avoiding it. It's okay for that to happen, but there are healthy ways of dealing with it, and you can learn to control, within reason, how you react to upsetting situations.
I totally understand about not being able to stop after one cut, though, it's definitely not uncommon. I never could, once I started it was like I had to keep going until all the anger and hurt and sadness had gone. That never really happens, though. I don't know if you're trying to stop, but obviously if not being able to control it is a problem, the best solution is not to start in the first place. I know it's not that easy, but hopefully you'll be able to find other ways of coping - there are plenty of ideas on the main site and around the forums. You could try to limit the number of times you cut, set yourself limits on how many times you're going to do it before you start. It's not easy to stick to, I know, but just try to stay as safe as you can, take care of your cuts and everything.
Sorry for rambling! I basically just wanted to say I understand, and welcome to RYL, I really hope you find it helpful. I'm always around if you need anything, feel free to PM anytime. Take care of yourself xo
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