You're not an idiot at all. A situation like this is really quite unpleasant for anyone and I think almost everybody would be upset by something like this.
What you need to think about is whether or not they are really worth such drastic action. To want to cut yourself over something like this is natural to a self harmer who deals with emotions in this way, but do you really want to relapse for the sake of 2 people who are being really childish?
You've apologised, you've tried to talk to them. What else can you do? I think maybe you should try and get your head around how you feel about this situation and then move on from it. They may start talking to you again eventually, they may not.
If you don't mind me asking, why did you fall out? There might be a way of resovling the issue, if you really still want to be their friend. xx
As has been said, you're not an idiot. There are other ways to help you cope with these emotions that you are having. If you are feeling upset you could try watching a funny film or doing something nice for yourself. If you are angry you could punch a pillow, rip up some paper, or go for a run. You are hurting enough, don't cause yourself any more pain. I'm sure that you know that self harming will only make things more difficult for you in the long run. Please take care and get in touch if you need anything.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
Hey, if you have apologized to your friends and they are still ignoring you, I have to wonder weather they were really true friends. You deserve friends who will accept you and forgive when you make mistakes. I know it is hard to be ignored, nobody likes it, but if they are still showing no signs of forgiveness, maybe it is time to move on and finds some new friends, which I know is super hard to do.
That is so great that you haven't cut in over a month, especially with all this going on. Well done. You are not an idiot, in fact you are really strong. It is normal to want to cut when there's pain and pressures like this, but you made it a month, you can make it longer.
you are NOT an idiot.
i get triggered when im ignored too. its a horrible feeling and its completely natural to be upset by it. i would be too. def not an idiot.
as said before, try and get this bad energy out in a healthy way.. like excercizing, punching bag, writing.. anything besides hurting yourself more :( you dont deserve it.
hope everything gets better
xo
"They say time heals all wounds. I don't agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessons, but it is never gone." - Rose Kennedy
You arent an idiot, when I fell out with my friends it felt like my world had ended. Is there anyway you could approach them when there is no way they can blank you aka face to face? You could just get a moment when they are on their own and explain your side of the story and your amazing achievement on not having cut for over a month.
Otherwise try and find some distraction techniques to enable you to continue not cutting. It really is a good thing you are doing, asking for help on this issue. Try walking or writing or painting or something? There are lots of things out there to help.
