scared of seeing yet another therapist

felipe · 05-07-2009, 04:07 PM

During my very difficult childhood, I have had many therapists. Some did actually help me, but in general they did not know what to do with a child like me.
They just transfered my case to another therapist....but no one ever saw through the mascarade. I was so scared that I never had the courage to tell the truth...
Now I am over 18. An adult. Not dependent anymore and I have finally been able to tell my psychologist what has been going on for so many years.....I am so embarrased but I guess it is somewhat of a relieve as well to be finally able to talk it over with someone.
But now this therapist (the first in many years I really feel I can trust) thinks I should consider yet another therapy. Because of the severity of my issues. He is convinced that they are more able to help me than he is. But I trust HIM....not someone else. Have I become too much attached to him? Is he fed up with me? Is the truth too much for him to handle????
I don't know what to do anymore. Should I take this opportunity to recovery (this is how he describes it) or is it just another false hope? Another referal because I am a hopeless case???

PLEASE some advise???

thanks ,
Felipe

(i am not a native english speaker, sorry for mistakes!)

one_step_closer · 05-07-2009, 04:56 PM

I understand some of what you are going through, I too have been transferred many times and one person bluntly said to me that I was beyond help. It's hard when you build up a trusting relationship with someone only for them to say that they aren't able to properly support you. He is the professional, so if he thinks that a different therapy might be helpful for you then it would be worth a try. Could you still see him for a short period of time until you get used to the new therapist? I'm sure that with time you could have that trust with another therapist. No one is a hopeless case, have faith in your recovery. I hope that everything goes well for you. Take care.

felipe · 05-07-2009, 06:48 PM

thank you!
I guess that is exactly how I feel, hopeless. Like the only one who really seems to understand, the only one who did not judge right away has suddenly given up on me as well....
It had been hard to be so honest and it almost seems that this honesty is being punnished now...

one_step_closer · 05-07-2009, 07:14 PM

I understand, but deep down i'm sure you know that you aren't being punished for being honest. Your honesty has allowed your therapist to see what support would be best for you.

Sometimes Crazy · 07-07-2009, 02:14 AM

I agree with Lindsay (one_step_closer) - your honesty hasn't been replied with punishment. Your honesty has allowed you to get the real help you need, the help that you haven't had before that could really make a difference and stop you needing to be passed on to lots of people again.

I too understand the hopeless and vulnerable feelings of trusting a certain person and then being "passed on". Your new therapist won't expect you to trust them straight away - they understand it can take a while and they will help you.

This post (How do I build up a relationship with my MH professional?) might help give you some ideas of opening up to your new therapist and building a relationship with them.

Look after yourself.

x

felipe · 07-07-2009, 09:29 AM

Thank you both so much...I guess I did know deep down inside. But I really needed the reassurance.

Anyway, I have been talking this through with my therapist and we agreed that he will stay involved. He will get regular updates and we will still speak once a month. So if things don't work out with this new therapy he will help me find something that will!

thanks for your support, it makes me feel so much better!