Trust? paranoia?

[jen-x]

I dont know who to trust. I was doing ok, and managing to talk to mh people but now i can't shake the feeling that they might be involved somehow in the experiment that my life was created for. So I'm back to square one, totally alone.

To make things worse, my friend, who i normally 'check' things with has gone away for 6months, so i'm back to trying to work out whether things are real or not totally alone. I know this sounds pathetic but it helped so much to have someone i trusted enough to ask 'did you hear that?', 'do you think this could be right?' etc etc. I'm fighting with myself to believe that this is psychosis, but god, it feels so real, and there's no undeniable proof that it not. idk.... sorry this turned into waffle..lol.. guess i'm just feeling a bit lonely

i wish there was some way of knowing who's safe, and who isn't, but the world doesn't work like that..

Thanks if you read this, it's a bit whiney..lol

jen x

[Diamonds.]

Do you know why your trust is so bad? Has anything happened to make you like this?

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i wish there was some way of knowing who's safe, and who isn't, but the world doesn't work like that..

Completely true unfortuantly, knowing this from my own experience, with sexual abuse. You have to go with your instincts.

There's nothing wrong with being lonely, its just a feeling, a horrible one i know.

If you feel you can trust me, pm me.
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