need advice

[PassedExpectations]

sorry if this is the wrong place - I couldn't decide between here or mental health.

I finally worked myself up to going and seeing a counselor about helping me to stop cutting, it took a ton of convincing from my friends and alot of aborted phone calls to do this. I almost didn't go at all. When I got there she made me show her my scars and cuts, which isn't fair, they're private, and when I started explaining about sam (sports announcer me) and all the rituals I do she stopped focusing on the cutting.

I know that I have pretty bad OCD, she didn't need to tell me that, and I hurt when I can't deal with sam's criticisms anymore and my brain starts going too fast. So it is in response to the OCD, but what I wanted was help finding a different way of dealing with it, not to be told that I have severe OCD, need to tell my parents and have them take me to a doctor so that I can get put on drugs which i am terrified of. She said that she wouldn't be able to help much otherwise.

She sent me home, and I have another appt for monday, but I don't really want to go because I know that I'm not going to tell my parents or go to a doctor, and then she'll be dissapointed at me, and wouldn't be able to help much at all. But I said I'd go.

So, does her reaction seem reasonable and my expectations just way off base? and would you go back?

[TinkerDebs]

if i was you i would go back and explain to ehr that i already bknew everything she told me and that actuially the reason i came to see her in the first place was to help with stoppign cutting and the OCD - and also explain the fear of the medication
maybe then she will understand a little better
i think she probably repsonded reasonably under the circumstances considering that you touched on the subject of the OCD - maybe she felt that was the bigger issue
could you also explain to her how you feel about the telling your parents and such
maybe you just need to tell her how it is for you and how you want the situation to be handled
o and also - they do tend to ask to see cuts/ scars but if you felt really uncompfortable about it - you can always say no
(i only show mine because after i'd braved showing her once - the fear of her seeing had gone as i knew she'd seen before)
SO I GUESS THE FACT YOU'VE ALREADY SHOWN HER ONCE SHOULD HOPEFULLY HELP IF SHE EVER ASKS AGAIN - YOU'LL KNOW YOU'VE BRAVED IT ONCE AND SO YOU CAN BRAVE IT AGAIN
BUT WELL DONE FOR GOING RTO SEE HER
(DAMN I HIT CAPS LOCK SOMEWHEN)

[Gone.]

I dont think she should have asked to see your scars, youre right- they are private. But it shows courage that you were able to show them.

Maybe she thinks its right to address the causes not the symptoms, she just doesnt realise the effect its having on you? Maybe you could tell her what you feel- you could even print off this thread? Tell her that you are scared of the drugs, and tell her you just want a different way of dealing with it and youll deal with the OCD in your own time and in your own way.

Also, you could mention how scared you are of her thinking badly of you for not wanting to tell your parents. I have made it perfectly clear to my counsellor and anybody I talk to that there is NO way that my parents will find out. My determination made them have to accept it and respect my feelings. Maybe knowing your own mind and stressing that you do not want your parents to find out would be a good thing. If they know how you feel and why you dont want to tell your parents then they might respect your views a little more.

Hope this helps :)

Shinee.x