messages, gift, pain

[Devil Girl]

I'm starting to hear things again ... like at work I hear someone calling my name and saying I need to run. Or hide. Or they are coming.

And when I am listening to my mp3 player I am being given instructions and messages...

I have blacked out and have typed or written things that I could not know.

I have this 'gift' aswell. I feel peoples emotions...This is why people think I have depression because I suck in everyones worries and stresses and sadness, it doesn't relieve them of it but I feel it aswell, and visiting my friend in the psych hosp was hard cause every one is so lost. I hate it...

I plan to numb it. because I can't deal with this any more.

I'm not wanting to be one of the chosen. I do not want this talent, this gift. I don't know how to reject it....to send it back...what do i do?

[Tuesday]

*Squishes* I imagine this must be a pretty scary thing to deal with. I'm sorry you're having to go through this. Do you have a psych or therapist or counselor or doctor or anyone like that you can talk to about this? It really only makes things worse if you keep it to yourself. You don't have to go through this alone, and there are answers and help. xx

*hugs* i also feel that way. like my ipod is sending me messages through the songs. or that i can feel other's emotions and that must be why i have depression.

i suggest talking to a therapist. they can help you deal with taking on other's emotions. and talking things out always helps. feel free to pm me if you ever need to.

[Devil Girl]

Thanks for the replies and hugs. I am not seeing anyone any more...Bit I was previously just been treated for depression. But I couldn't trust anyone any more....

I just wish things were simpler...

i think you should consider going to a counselor. they might be able to help you out.

[Sometimes Crazy]

Hiya,

It sounds like things are really tough for you at the moment, feeling all these emotions and picking up things must feel really scary and overwhelming sometimes.

You mention that you couldn't trust anyone anymore... do you think you'd be able to talk to us about why you feel that way?

If you don't think you'd be able to explain things properly, maybe think about keeping a day's-diary of how things are for you at the moment, and record everything in there. If you get any instructions not to write it down, put down that you've had these instructions so that your doctor can reassure you and keep an eye on things.

Let us know how you get on, honey, take care

x