Psychotic Break Down! I Need Help Please!!

[Puck]

Its all gone wild i dont know what to do!? No-one knows of my psychosis and i dont know where to go surely if i turned up at school like this they would call and ambulance or the police!? the walls keep falling around me and there is blood everywhere.... My dead boyfriend is back saying how i killed him and he says i deserve the same and he wont stop until im dead! Everyone is out to get me i know im being watched they want me dead i know it everyone is against me even my friends and family! I dont know what to do the shadows are all around me trying to get me to act and im so scared! The girl is outside trying to make me go to her she always tells me how to do these things... there are voices all around me i have no idea what to do!? Please help before i do act i really havent got a clue!

[Merc]

No one here can do anything.
call a crisis line, hospital, after hours clinic, etc.

[whirlpools]

that sounds terrifying. do you have any outside help, even if they don't know about your psychotic experiences? if you don't, i would suggest going to A&E and asking to speak to someone from the mental health team.

[Stellata]

How're you doing now?

[Puck]

Not great i ended up drinking a lot which dont go well along side my ad's and ended up pretty much either in deep sleep or unconsious this was intentional to stop me from doing anything stupid. I'm going to keep an eye on this shadows are following me everywhere and the girl doesnt leave my boyfriend however who is really irritating me and getting me at my worst varies he comes when he wishes. Im quite confused with his appearance though its not right from what i know but then again this is probably all planned out to get me i know it is... i confined myself to my room and was too dazed for my mum to care so im buggered really! I know my psych is going to push what i cant talk about next time which will just make it a hell of a lot worse >< this is just so utterly stupid!

[Stellata]

Talking about it can make less pressure in your mind though, make you feel less alone with it - even though it may feel awful at the time for a while because of shame and fear and all those things.

((gentle hug)) Take good care of yourself.