bloated from meds want to SCREAM

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saw myself in a pic and my face is totally distorated all bloated
there is no structure to it i look ugly as sin
i hate myself i want to die
i tried on clothes today i couldnt find anything to fit and the thing is im eating NOTHING
i swear and i have cut down on all the beer and everything
im eating all salads every day thats all nothing else for the past three weeks to a month and im still getting fatter
im on 100 mg seroquel and 300 mg solian noct
im so depressed i was so beautiful b4 honestly was so slim and had love;y clothes and loooked really well
i hate myself so much now
im thinking of stopping taking the meds its been three years now and im bound to be alright i ahd two physchotic episodes three years ago but wouldnt you think id be alright now
i cant take it anymore im huge honestly im not at all like the way i was
ppl dont even know me on he street
im so embaressed
id appreciate any comments

Hunny *big hugs*
I'm yet to meet ONE person who hasn't put on weight or suffered from being bloated from being on anti-psychotics. It's a common side effect.
Do NOT just stop them - they will make you very ill if you just stop them. You need to talk to a professional about the side effects you're suffering from (weight gain/bloatedness) and they may decide to take you off them or they may decide to put you on something else.

The reason you haven't had any psychotic episodes is because of the medications you're on - it's keep it all at bay so you're able to live a relatively "normal" life and are able to function. If you were to just stop them yourself you'd be back at square one and worse than ever, which i'm pretty sure you do NOT want.

So you need to go back to your GP to be referred back to your psychiatrist, that's if you aren't already in direct contact with your psychiatrist.

Take care and look after yourself - remember it's not just you who's been through it so you aren't alone hun. xxxx

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thanks for listening
i do want to stop though i have tried every other med they dont work
i am on my last ones now so i have to stick with them but i dont want to
i think id be ok with out them by now

[lozza]

its best to talk to your dr about this. Please dont just stop taking them. I know the side effects suck but coming off them by yourself may do more harm than good.

There's litrali thousands of medications out there - it would be impossible to have been on all of them, the more common medications for any sort of mental illness are popular, and people believe once they're done with that's it. But there are lots of alternative meds out there - and even if by chance there isn't, you shouldn't just stop taking the medication, i think you already know this, and no one on RYL is going to give you the go ahead to do so.

If you want to make yourself extremely ill that is your choice. You need to speak to your GP/psychiatrist who, if they agree for you to come off medication, will keep a close eye on you as you're slowly brought off them - if your psychosis comes back, they will most likely put you onto something else or mix some meds together for a similar effect.

Because you've been "OK" for 3 years doesn't mean you will be when you come off them.

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ok im sorry ur right im just so distraught at seeing myself so ugly honestly
i will have to go for some of the older meds maybe but im very sensitive to meds and have very bad side effects from most of them ,im a cynic
thanks for your honestly your dead right

[lozza]

could you maybe chat to your dr about a lower dose? I am not sure if it will help or not but for me it has in the past...

hang in there and what ever happens, I hope it works out ok

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thanks lozza x
i tried cutting down by 100mgs but i was going through hell with work being quiet and money problems so they upped it again instead of prning me
ill say ill just have to change cos this weight gain has been gradual for the last two years ,im a show now honestly and it just keeps creeping up in me
thanks for listening and acrasia too

[lozza]

*hugs* i wish you all the best with it hun