Triggering (Suicide) - I don't know how to handle this

[Becca]

I have moved this post to r&v http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum...d.php?t=100341 I have not deleted my thread because I didn't want anyone wondering what might have happened to it. I probably should have put it there in the first place.

If your mental health people are of no help, why not move to a different part of the country to recieve the help? I'm sure it's do-able. Also - MIND do counselling for upto 18 sessions if you haven't tried them out.

There's not much anywhere here can do Becca other than wish you luck and give you virtual hugs. This has been ongoing for some time now and although the NHS mental health services are wankers, i'm finding there behaviour towards you rather difficult to fathom - i'm not calling you a liar by any means, not at all, but i think it's more shock than anything that they will leave you in this state.

But what do you want help with Becca? What do you feel would help you get back on track/recover? Therapy? Inpatient?

[Becca]

You are quite right in that no-one here can help and by putting it here it gives that impression so I have moved the original post to r&v (thanks for pointing it out. I should have realised that myself).

To answer your points:

I can't afford to move - I looked into it and the cost of vans, people to drive my stuff, pack my stuff would be horrendous and the fact is my benefit will not stretch to that. I didn't know some MIND places offered counselling because the local one does not.

I have no idea what I want now and I don't say that to be difficult. I simply don't know.

You didn't need to move your post Becca - that merely gives off the impression i'm a bitch for what i said.
But if the tables were turned, i'm sure you'd ask others the same questions - what do you need/want help with/from? What do you feel would help you recover? These are questions you need to figure out on your own, it's the first step for everyone in regards to recovery. You don't want to be like this anymore, so by thinking and articulating yourself as to what you would like/want it may help the services more in being able to offer you it. If that makes sense?

Hugs. It won't be like this forever if you don't want it to be. And yes, if you check out the mind website and type your area into the search engine at the top it will give you your nearest mind, they do counselling sessions - usually free of charge but i paid £2 every week as a donation as it runs on donations.
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[Becca]

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Originally Posted by Acrasia

You didn't need to move your post Becca - that merely gives off the impression i'm a bitch for what i said.

Please, please don't think that. I am very worried about certain people reading it, the point about people not being able to help was really secondary to that. Though I didn't put that in the post before yours and I apologise for that because I should have done and it does give that impression.

You are quite right I would probably as the same questions of other people. I just don't know how to answer them myself right now. What you have said does make sense I think, but I need to read it again when I feel a bit more with it. I just wanted to reply right now cos I don't want you thinking I think you are a bitch for what you said or others thinking that either.

Thank-you for the hugs!

No no, it's ok, i know you didn't mean it like that, it just made me feel like that. You know me well enough to know i don't necessarily beat around the bush and i'm not always very articulate when it comes to replying to threads, especially when i'm a bit all over the place myself. So no need to apologise - you didn't upset me or anything.

I do think your best bet though is to sit down when you're feeling a bit more with it and think clearly on what you would like help with, medication? Therapy? Hospitalisation? - These questions do not need to be answered all in one go, you can do them in baby steps when you feel able to, don't put pressure on yourself to answer them as you will just work yourself up more. But the first part of recovery is knowing what you need and i think this is a step only you can take at the moment. So weigh up the options and put them on paper - it may help anyone you see understand what is going on for you and what you feel you would benefit from.

Is there no way you could rent you place out and move into a hostel or contact the council in an area you want to move to for a place? They will beable to sort accomodation out for you. You could even do a flat share if necessary - it might help to be not so alone, and pay your rent with what money you have from renting your place out.

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[Becca]

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Originally Posted by Acrasia

No no, it's ok, i know you didn't mean it like that, it just made me feel like that. You know me well enough to know i don't necessarily beat around the bush and i'm not always very articulate when it comes to replying to threads, especially when i'm a bit all over the place myself. So no need to apologise - you didn't upset me or anything.

*tries again to reply to this post! idiot PC ate the last try!!!*

I'm glad you realised I didn't. You are quite right I know you well enough to know you don't beat around the bush and I appreciate your help, even though it probably seems I don't.

And most importantly I wanted anyone coming across this rather confusing thread to know that I don't think you are a bitch and neither should anyone else!!!

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Originally Posted by Acrasia

I do think your best bet though is to sit down when you're feeling a bit more with it and think clearly on what you would like help with ....

Yeh I think this is what I will try and do after. I'm sure your suggestions are good ones - they always have been in the past. I'm just all over the place right now.

I have contacted a possible source of help, just waiting to see if I meet their criteria. Though goodness knows if the email will make much sense (looks over thread and decides probably not!).

I hope this thread is left here for me to return to when I am able to. I appreciate it is probably confusing. But I want the option of reading Acrasias replies when better than I am now, so please don't anyone ask for it to be deleted or anything.

Thanks,
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Becca