"and I knew as soon as I'd left that you'd go and **** someone else, you WHORE!"--The Only Thing You Talk About by Destroy Rebuild Until God Shows
Broken-hearted and looking to mend. [/color]
"...I lay sleepless knowing that my heart still belongs to you. And I've never been one to beg. Please don't go. Just stay. I watched with tears in my eyes as you walked away. Miss your voice and your touch. And if I told you I loved you could that be enough?" You Told Me You Loved Me by Cinematic Sunrise
"Here I am expecting just a little bit too much from the wounded" 3 Libras by A Perfect Circle
I see her as a little girl hiding in her room
She takes another bath and she sprays her momma's perfume
To try to wipe away the scent he left behind
But it haunts her mind.
You see she's his little rag, nothing more than just a waif
And he's mopping up his need, she is tired and afraid
Maybe she'll find a way through these awful years to disappear.
Ask me if I think there's a God up in the heaven Where did He go in the middle of her shame?
Ask me if I think there's a God up in the heavens
I see no mercy and no one down here's naming names Nobody's naming names.
Now she's looking in the mirror at a lovely woman face
No more frightened little girl, like she's gone without a trace
Still she leaves the light burning in the hall
It's hard to sleep at all.
Still she crawls up in her bed acting quiet as a mouse
Deep inside she's listening for a creaking in the house
But noone's left to harm her, she's finally safe and sound
There's a peace she's found.
Ask her how she knows there's a God up in the heaven
Where did He go in the middle of her shame?
Ask her how she knows there's a God up in the heavens
She said His mercy is bringing her life again.
Ask me how I know there's a God up in the heaven
(How do you know?)
Where did He go in the middle of her shame
(Where did He go?)
Ask me how I know there's a God up in the heavens
(How do you know?)
She said his mercy is bringing her life again
She's coming to life again.
He's in the middle of her pain
In the middle of her shame
Mercy brings life
He's in the middle
Mercy in the middle.
So ask me how I know
Ask me how I know, yeah
Ask me how I know there's a God up in the heaven
(How do you know?)
Ask me how I know there's a God up in the heavens
(How do you know?)
Yeah, ask me how I know
(How do you know?)
Ask me
Ask me
Ask me how I know
(How do you know?)
There's a God up in the heavens
Ask me how I know there's a God up in the heavens.
“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
"I'm sorry for what I did
I did what my body told me to, I didn't mean to do ya harm
Every time I pin down what I think I want it slips away
The ghost slips away."--Butterfly by Weezer
Broken-hearted and looking to mend. [/color]
"...I lay sleepless knowing that my heart still belongs to you. And I've never been one to beg. Please don't go. Just stay. I watched with tears in my eyes as you walked away. Miss your voice and your touch. And if I told you I loved you could that be enough?" You Told Me You Loved Me by Cinematic Sunrise
"Here I am expecting just a little bit too much from the wounded" 3 Libras by A Perfect Circle
Sick of hearing how happy I should be
I just don't know how to be
I can no longer pretend
No more making out to be
Maybe all I needs a slap,
Someone to shake it out of me
Help me to spell my irrational thoughts think more rationally
Sick of being in the state of vanity
It's agony
Am I torn or is it all some twisted form of sanity
Can it be I'm really just obsessed with myself, obsessive compulsive depressed, my pressures reflecting my health
Taking care of my career but I'm neglecting myself
Rejected therapy no I just won't except any help
I pride myself on my honestly but in all honestly today
I lied I was asked how I was and I said I was fine, I'm not
Hold Out Your Hand. Let Me Feel You As The Sun Comes Up Again.
I've Never Felt So Free. We Made It Through The Night.
Forget About The Fight. We Left The Cold, And The Darkness Tried To Take Us Down.
I've Never Felt So Free. We Made It Through The Night
I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything
[Chorus:]
What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
I wear this crown of thorns
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right here
[Chorus:]
What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way
Qualified Peer Support Worker (2017)
current mental health diagnoses: depression, PTSD, GAD, self harm, bpd
current meds (as at Feb 2017): , thyroxine, metformin, iron, b12, vit d, atenolol, Butec, Naproxen, Nefopam, Lanzoprazole, Bupropion, quetiapine (prn)
Is this the real life?
Is this just fantasy?
Caught in a land slide,
No escape from reality
Open your eyes,
Look up to the skies & see,
I'm just a poor boy, I need no sympathy,
Because I'm easy come, easy go,
Little high, little low
Any way the wind blows doesn't really matter to
me, to me
Mama,
Just killed a man,
Put a gun against his head, pulled my trigger
Now he's dead
Mama... life had just begun,
But now I've gone & thrown it all away
Mamaaaaa oooh,
Didn't mean to make you cry,
If I'm not back again this time tomorrow,
Carry on, carry on as if nothing really matters
Too late, my time has come,
Sends shivers down my spine, body's aching all
the time
Goodbye, everybody, I've got to go
Got to leave you all behind & face the truth
Mamaaaaa oooh,
I don't wat to die
I sometimes wish I'd never been born at all
I see a little silhouetto of a man,
Scaramouche! Scaramouche! Will you do the
Fandango?
Thunderbolt & lightning, very, very frightening me!
Galileo, Galileo
Galileo, Galileo
Galileo, Figaro - magnifico
I'm just a poor boy, nobody loves me
He's just a poor boy from a poor family,
Spare him his life from this monstrosity!
Easy come, easy go, will you let me go
Bismilah! No, we will not let you go
(Let him go!) Bismilah! We will not let you go
(Let him go!) Bismilah! We will not let you go
(Let me go) Will not let you go
(Let me go) Never let you go
(Let me go) Never let you go (Let me go) Ah
No, no, no,no,no,no,no
Oh mama mia, mama mia, mama mia, let me go
Beelzebub has a devil put aside for me, for me,
for meeeeeeeeee!
So you think you can stop me & spit in my
eye?!?!
So you think you can love me & leave me to
die?!?!
Oh, baby, can't do this to me baby
Just gotta get out, just gotta get right outta
here!
Nothing really matters, anyone can see,
Nothing really matters,
Nothing really matters to me...
Any way the wind blows
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Reason: spelling correction
"One good thing about music, when it hits you feel no pain"
Now here you go again, you say
You want your freedom
Well who am I to keep you down
It's only right that you should
Play the way you feel it
But listen carefully to the sound
Of your loneliness
Like a heartbeat drives you mad
In the stillness of remembering what you had
And what you lost, and what you had, and what you lost
Thunder only happens when it's raining
Players only love you when they're playing
Say women they will come and they will go When the rain washes you clean, you'll know, you'll know
Now here I go again, I see the crystal visions
I keep my visions to myself, it's only me
Who wants to wrap around your dreams and,
Have you any dreams you'd like to sell?
Dreams of loneliness,
Like a heartbeat, drives you mad
In the stillness of remembering, what you had,
And what you lost and what you had and what you lost
Thunder only happens when it's raining
Players only love you when they're playing
Say, women, they will come and they will go When the rain washes you clean, you'll know
Thunder only happens when it's raining
Players only love you when they're playing Say, women, they will come and they will go
When the rain washes you clean, you'll know
You'll know, you will know, you'll know
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Retard girl makes us sick
Retard, poke her with a stick
Well, she walks funny
Kind of like a pig
God, I hate that retard girl
See the retard girl walking in the schoolyard
In the same dress from fourth grade
See the retard girl cross-eyed in the schoolyard
Looking for the friend she made
The retard girl, retard girl
The retard girl
Yeah, don't forget her face
As shines the moon among the lesser fires
She is sucking dick out in the yard
Well, she walks funny
Kind of like a pig
God, I hate that retard girl
Hey, the retard girls all walk funny
She don't think like the others do
See the retard girl squirming in the mud
Throw her in the trash can
See what she does
The retard girl, retard girl
The retard girl
Yeah, don't forget a face
I asked her mother, "Why'd you implode?"
Well, her head's so big
It just might explode
And she walks funny
Kind of like a pig
God, I hate that retard girl
Hit her
See that retard girl staring at the sun
What does she see?
See the retard girl stare at everyone
I hope she doesn't see me
Retard girl, the retard girl
The retard girl
Yeah, don't forget her face
Retard girl
The retard girl
The retard girl
Don't throw her away
I'm lucky if I ever see the light of day again. My skin is choking me, my feeble walls are closing in.
This cell is filled with scholars easing me, they're teasing me; they told me so I didn't know the fall would be this easy.
How long until it starts to do me in? I can’t give out what I’m not breathing in. I know they'll come with what I'm owed, guilty as charged.
My enemies belittle me reminding me the penalty
of all my deeds despite my pleas is death.
Don't let go 'cause I don't wanna be this, I don't wanna be this. Death is mine I know. Don't let go, don't let go. Save your own 'cause I don't wanna be this, I don't wanna be this. Death is mine I know. Don't let go, don't let go, savior...
oh non-believer, please believe me.
is there honestly nothing in this world
that keeps you living & breathing?
you're a ghost in your own
goddamn city.
If I had to I would put myself right beside you
So let me ask Would you like that?
Would you like that?
And I don't mind
If you say this love is the last time
So now I'll ask Do you like that?
Do you like that?
No!
Something's getting in the way.
Something's just about to break.
I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane.
So tell me how it should be.
Try to find out what makes you tick.
As I lie down
Sore and sick.
Do you like that?
Do you like that?
There's a fine line between love and hate.
And I don't mind.
Just let me say that
I like that
I like that
Something's getting in the way.
Something's just about to break.
I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane.
As I burn another page,
As I look the other way.
I still try to find my place in the diary of Jane.
So tell me how it should be.
DESPERATE, I will crawl
Waiting for so long
No love, there is no love.
Die for ANYONE
What have I BECOME?
Something's getting in the way.
Something's just about to break.
I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane.
As I burn another page,
As I look the other way.
I still try to find my place in the diary of Jane.
'Coincidence...it's what the Universe does for...fun.'
The Doctor
Every single night
I endure the flight
Of little wings of white-flamed
Butterflies in my brain These ideas of mine
Percolate the mind
Trickle down the spine Swarm the belly, swelling to a blaze
That's when the pain comes in
Like a second skeleton
Trying to fit beneath the skin I can't fit the feelings in
Every single night's alight with my brain
What'd I say to her? Why'd I say it to her? What does she think of me?
That I'm not what I ought to be
That I'm what I try not to be
It's got to be somebody else's fault I can't get caught
If what I am is what I am, 'cause I does what I does
Then brother, get back, cause my breast's gonna bust open
The rib is the shell and the heart is the yolk and
I just made a meal for us both to choke on
Every single night's a fight with my brain I just want to feel everything
So I'm gonna try to be still now
Gonna renounce the mill a little while and
If we had a double king-sized bed
We could move in it and I'd soon forget
That what I am is what I am 'cause I does what I does
And maybe I'd relax, let my breast just bust open My heart's made of parts of all that surround me
And that's why the devil just can't get around me
Every single night's alright, every single night's a fight
And every single fight's alright with my brain I just want to feel everything
"And sometimes when our fights begin,
I think I'll let the Dragons win...
And then I think perhaps I won't,
Because they're Dragons, and I don't."
I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain An ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me?
It is I that wanted space
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
I’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won’t touch again In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I’ll drive so ****ing far away that I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling “Make it go away!”
Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered “How can you do this to me?”
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
For you
For you
For you
'Coincidence...it's what the Universe does for...fun.'
The Doctor
How could you do this to me?
Won't let you hurt me again now
I'm nothing to you I can see
Just walk away from me
I'm torn apart, I can't believe
Stand and watch me bleed
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