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Positive recovery post - 9 years free❤👍😊 a piece of writing reviews appreciated
Today I am 9 years sh free my mind is split to be proud or not. I know I should not of done it in the first place but at the time it was my only answer. Now I have scars some have faded but I know where they lie , each one has their on story and reason which I'd like to forget. I have told some people about it but I'm not ready to tell others just yet. Im not perfect I never will be I'm not fully healed yet, but one a things changed i no longer physically harm myself. i may be free physically but not mentally, sometimes i loss my mind and it will come back to me the urge and the thoughts i want to move on and be fully free from everything but right now I am struggling to overcome this hurdle. I've learned its ok to not be ok and to have mental health issues. I've learned I'm not alone In this battle and have people who want to help. I just need to learn to open up and let them in put my guard down a little. There's a lot more to self harm than just hurting your self, its an addiction and slowly becomes a way of coping with every day struggles. Slowly I'm finding the real me again, there's still parts of me I dont like but I'll get there in the end. There's still a long road ahead and recovery takes a long time and there's always a few slip ups until you can be fully free and 100% recovered from your addiction but I'm sure I'll get there. I may still have problems in my head and have really low days for no obvious reason but at least I can say I didn't need to hurt My self to get through the day. Now I want to move on , better my self become more confident and face any issues that appear. My scars are a reminder of my past but also my future, they remind me of how far I have came and how strong I've become. Just like My butterfly tattoo reminds me to always believe in my self.
Last edited by blue_kk : 30-04-2017 at 12:59 PM.
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