Can't you see that what I wear makes me feel pretty, and if I wore what she wore I'd feel ugly? Can't you accept me for who I am and who I want to be? Maybe I'll regret it in a few years, but let me live and learn. Let me be who I am.
Location: In a glass vial in the pocket of a beautiful mind.
I am currently:
why do you do this to me? why do you torture me this way?
rhap·so·dy - an ecstatic expression of feeling or enthusiasm. ♫
"Sacrifice is the most you can love someone." ♥
“Love was at best an excuse for stupidity, at worst a destructive, dangerous emotion that drove men to acts of annihilation which defied logic. It was a twisted, insidious sentiment used to justify everything from spoiling a child to destroying entire civilizations.”
i just don't know how i'm going to do this anymore. Stupid hospital systems you admit for a week let me out then say i have to go back in after the weekend get the courage to go in again and you say no you can be an out patient but the moment i see any mark your back in for Two months.Your so unfair i hate it. I don't think i have the strenght not to sh i'm sorry but i don't think i have it in me to do this. i'm tryin babe but i can't not do it i can't just quit not after this long. i can't do it but i don't want to go back in. RRRRRRRgggggggg i'm just stupid babe i'm sorry but i do love you though i really do
i told you the truth, i didnt lie, i didn't cover it up or sugar coat it, i didnt push you away
so tell me how is this my fault??
i did all those things last time and i lost you
so i told the truth
and still lost you
just tell me its not forever
It's killing me too
It's so wrong not to be with you
It's getting harder to stay awake It's killing me too
It stops my heart just to be with you
So listen cause you are the only one who cares to hear
please don't. please. god, i wouldn't be able to stand it.
i get sick every time i think about it, about you going through with it..
i picture it in my head, i think about how i haven't helped you enough.
and the guilt, the guilt, it's awful. god it's awful.
please. don't. i don't want to go through this again.
i love you, i want you to feel better, i would do anything to make you feel better.
and crying over this never helps, i need to do something, but i don't know what because i don't want you to hate me.
and i want to help. everything i do never helps.
please get help. please get better. don't go through with this.
you're worth it. you're gorgeous, you're smart, you have a great sense of humor, you're artistic, you're a great friend.
but you need to realize all of that on your own. because me sitting here and telling you that won't make you realize that.
you're my best friend. i love you. i'm just really worried right now.
If u want the Rainbow,u gotta put up with the Rain
Join Date: Mar 2005
Location: London
I am currently:
Why wont any of you notice that im NOT OKAY? what more do i have to do to show you, will you finally believe it when youre laying flowers on my grave? Maybe then youll realise that i was serious. but by then itll be too late. what more do you want me to do, ive tried to do the right thing, ive tried to ask for help... and you all keep on burying your heads in the sand about everything that happens.
PLEASE start working with me instead of against me, i cant cant cant go on like this for a single moment longer, please help me? then i'll be able to help all of you again
Why won't you save me? Do you not even care enough to hug me anymore? :'( I need you.
You're a star the way you are
You know you're not fooling anyone, no
You got the eyes of an angel
Don't try to change, yeah
Everybody's got their scars
Nevermind how ugly they are
No matter what they tell you
You're beautiful the way you are
"You shouldn't have to pay for your love with your bones and your flesh"
maybe if you listened to me you would no what is going on.
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
In year 5 at the school disco, Beautiful by James Blunt was played.
At the end of it you sang the words "I will never be with you" and said haha.
You were only playing, you didn't mean anything by it.
Since then I have slowly fallen for you, and sometimes I think you might even like me back.
But I truly beleive the words you said all those years ago are keeping us apart.
It's just me being supersticious.
But that's what I beleive.
I love you.
I can't tell you what's wrong,because you'll probably assume I'm going to kill myself.
Feeling like it'd be a fabulous way of dealing with things,doesn't mean I'm going to do it.
It doesn't.
"Watch with glittering eyes the whole world around you because the greatest secrets are always hidden in the most unlikely places. Those who don't believe in magic will never find it."
why did you have to find me this way. i hate falling down the stairs. i was hoping to have been able to get up, but you found me unconcious again. darn these blackouts. the sooner they fond out whats wrong the better. glad they didnt keep me in hospital again. i just want to know whats wrong with me.
When i sent you that text I wished you'd reply like you used to 'fuck work, come cuddle with me :) ' I'd LOVE to! Please hold me! Why did you change? I know it's my fault. Please forgive me. I love you more than anyone else could and my mind just keeps going over the good times. I can't let you go. You take the pain away. Hug me, kiss me. I'll always be here for you. I want you to be happy, honestly but I know you could be happy with me. Don't give up on me, on us? Please? I'm trying to recover for you. I'd die for you...
You're a star the way you are
You know you're not fooling anyone, no
You got the eyes of an angel
Don't try to change, yeah
Everybody's got their scars
Nevermind how ugly they are
No matter what they tell you
You're beautiful the way you are
"You shouldn't have to pay for your love with your bones and your flesh"
I'm sorry.
I'm so so so sorry.
I'm not ready to stop yet.
I wasn't doing it for me, I was doing it for you.
I don't want to hurt you, but I know you are going to ask.
I'm not okay, not one little bit.
~*~ Courage does not always Roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day saying I will try again tomorrow~*~
faith_may is my big sister on RYL<3
*Fallen*Stars* is my aunt on RYL <3
Silent is my big sister on RYL <3
Shattered is my little sister on RYL <3
do you ever think that its because i cant lie to you that i have to hurt you by telling the truth?
because i could never lie to you
[center]" I know what it's like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can't. How you hurt yourself on the outside to try to kill the thing on the inside."
