A few months ago I moved out, I was on housing benefits, looking for work. I found a music course, applied, got on it. Lost my benefits, lost my home, had to move back in with my mum. Gave up everything to be able to do it.
Found out yesterday the course has lost its funding. I don't get a qualification out of it. So I gave up everything for no reason. Also found out yesterday that my dad has lost his job. So four of us now have to live on £60 a week... No wonder really, that my mum wants me to move out again...
I can't do it... I can't move out, I can't keep fighting, every time I try to make something of myself, to do something right, everything just... Falls to pieces again... I am so close to giving up and I just... Don't know how to fight anymore..
Sorry for taking up space... Not... Really sure what I'm looking for in posting this... Sorry...
No, it was a course run by a charity, music tech and vocals... I've never found anything else like it...
And my dad will be getting income support of £60 a week. For 4 of us. My parents are goonna be using my savings and stuff for a while, so... They should let me stay while they're planning on using that, right?... Guess I just... Gotta find a job... Like I haven't been doing that for the last year anyway...
Any work. The course is gonna last for another month, in that time I can build up experience that will help me get into the music industry, recording and writing and such. We're also gonna try and organise a benefit, to try and raise enough money to fund the rest of the course, so we can get the qualifications... But Idk if we'll be able to do it in time, or if we'll be able to raise enough money... My mum can't get jobseekers, something to do with her not having enough national insurance contributions... She has tried, but... I think her and my dad are both looking for a full time job, and looking into tax credits and stuff...
I just feel tired,you know? I feel like... Whenever stuff starts to go right, something completely destroys everything... So... What's the point?...
You are in a really unfortunate situation, but remember that things can always get better. It sounds like you're taking all the right steps towards making your self employable.
Ohh, I thought anyone could get jobseekers. *is concerned*. Is there like a citizens advice bureau near you? They could help you to find out about tax credits etc and any other money that you might be entitled to.
And good luck with the fundraising; I really hope you are able to get to do the rest of the course!
My dad's looking into the tax credits and stuff, I'm not entitled to anything like that... I'm not entitled to anything at all...
I'd like to believe that it will get better, I really do, but... I just can't make myself believe it... I just... Want to give up, want to stop fighting...
Do you have any professional help for this?
And I know it's hard to believe when you're having a hard time; I think you just have to have faith and get hope from others: things can get better.
Idk, we mostly just talked about random crap like music... She never really talked to me about stuff that was going on... And I don't want to go back to my doctor, I think he thinks it's all just for attention...
I'm so f***ing tired...
Ugh, it sucks when you feel doctors think that. It might not be true though! But if you're worried, what about making an appointment to see a different doctor?
