i did tell someone
im the farest from ok as i have ever gotten
especially since this happened today
i kept on feeling like the staff was upset with me now i know that the feeling was right because The staff told me that I should have been punished for what happened to the other person who was fired (the one who brought the man into the group home) so I offered me as a punching bag and to cut my arm off as punishment but mrs. T said no that no one is mad at me but all the stuff that she and mrs. C said on the bus going to the group home from the dayhab today tells me otherwise like "ooo i was just about to let her have i swear to god she made my blood boil" and "if she ever so even point her ipod at me im fliing a lawsuit!!! i'll sue her!!! i'll sue the famly and i'll sue the company!!!!!! let that bitch record me and see what happens!!!!!!!! i dont care!!!!!!" after that i told mrs.T that i had wanted to talk to her about some stuff and when we got to the group home and no more then a few moments in the talk shes saying that i needed to get punished and out of the group home because i got the lady fired so I offered me as a punching bag and to cut my arm off as punishment she said no but then she told me that what happened with my dad and me ( one of the reasons why i even came to this group home) must have been all my fault otherwise id still be living at home with my family but what she said was wrong i didnt go JUST because of my dad i went to have experiences and i wanted to make new friends and be able to be as independent as i could be then she said that I did what I did to the other lady who got fired because she was black and I tried to explain to her that it was about gender and that I didn?t do that because of her skin color but because I felt unsafe with a male in the house that could have hurt me but she woudnt listen to at all!!!!!!!!!!
Today earlier I tried telling the therapist that i thought that the staff was really upset and angry about what had happened to the fired staff and he said that i did the right thing its her job to make us feel safe within the group home and if she didnt do her job then she should not have the job and what other people do is not my fault whatsoever
and when the talk with Mrs. T was over i called my mom and talked to her about all of this and she said that i need to stand up for my rights and i know that what they said wasnt true and that i have a right to feel and stay safe within my group home and since the two other clients arent very talkive and arent aware of the dangers of stuff like sexual assault and i helped them be safe and stand up for their rights as well
after the phone call mrs. T yelled at me for telling my mom what she called bullshit but it wasnt ok?!!!!! I TOLD THE TRUTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and then went on a mini rant about black people are being the only minority and how they are the only ones who are done like this and all of that other stuff but IM ASIAN IM NOT 100% WHITE i am part of a minority TOO!!!!!!!!!!!but when something like this happens i dont automatically think its because of my skin color like she did mrs.T was the one who brought up and started talking about how it was all about race and stuff like that NOT ME why?? BECAUSE IT HAD NOTHING TO DO WITH IT!!!!!!!! and now because I told my mom all of what was happening i can?t even touch the phone anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!