Drinking makes me freak the hell out about everything.
I watch cooking programs in the evening to not get sad, and I've run out of cooking programs dammit! How are you lot?
general, being back was always going to be hard. Im terrified of the stairs, and after nearly 2 months of little moving i get tired easily and it frustrating.
"Its not how long a star shines, what is remembered is the brightness of the light"
If anyone wants a laugh listen to what just happened to me.
Went to go to the Kitchen (remember I live in a bungalow with my boyf and brother).
My brother is stood in the bathroom butt naked fiddling with the shower curtain while my boyfriend is shaving in the same bathroom, i was traumatised, thankfully all i saw was my brothers butt before i ran away!
Mari, be gentle with yourself, remember things are going to take a little time, i know it must be hard but its the same with both mental and physical health, these things take time x
lol claire sure there wasnt some butt shaving going on :P
No ones in the kitchen and i think everyone else is doing uni work so i dont want to disturb. I just got used to being at home and going and playing with pets and sitting in the living room with family and now im just kinda on my own.
Sad thing is ive been thinking alot about how i dont want to end up alone, i like christmas, but family will not always be there, in time everyone dies and what happens then? i end up alone.
"Its not how long a star shines, what is remembered is the brightness of the light"
Yes (and i can't believe I'm saying this) parents won't always be there, but there are siblings, friends, loved ones, partners.
If my parents died now, I would have christmas with kev and his family, my brothers, by god my aunt would probably love it if i turned up lol. At some point my brothers will probably end up with partners and possibly kids..
As long as you don't lock yourself away forever there will always be someone and a place to go hun. By god your younger than me and if these ppl aren't in your life yet, they will be
I dont have any outside family and i dont get on with my brother, when my parents die i have no one. Its something ive thought for a long time now, i guess no one wants to be the old lady that sits alone with no one.
"Its not how long a star shines, what is remembered is the brightness of the light"
Go on, look at what i said, there were more ppl than just brothers and parents.
Some people end up with friends who are like family, a partner (who might have the hugest family who take you in), as i said as long as you don't lock yourself away for the rest of your life.
