I'm not looking forward to Friday night even though I keep saying to you I am. It's not you guys it's me, I just want to be on my own at the moment so that if I need to break down and cry I can. I don't want to be all miserable and breaking down in front of you.
Fuck, I miss you. I miss you so much I cry myself to sleep. I'm sorry I wasn't good enough and that I threw away our friendship because I was too weak to take the pain. You were actually my everything, I just made so many mistakes. I know you hurt too and I'm really truely sorry for what I did and what I said and how I handled everything.
But you'll never know because to you I'm as good as dead. Even if I could say this to you, you wouldn't entertain it, even if you believed it. But I cling to the hope that you'd care; that by cutting me out of your life you're just making sure you never have to.
it's the choices we make.
"I meant," said Ipslore bitterly, "what is there in this world that truly makes living worthwhile?"
Death thought about it.
"CATS," he said eventually. "Cats are nice."
oh non-believer, please believe me.
is there honestly nothing in this world
that keeps you living & breathing?
you're a ghost in your own
goddamn city.
We are male and female. We are artists, athletes, and students. We have depression, PTSD, eating disorders, bipolar disorder, or maybe no diagnosis at all. Some of us were abused, some not. We come from all walks of life and can be any age. We are every race or religion that you can think of. Our common link is this: We are in pain. We self-injure. And we are not freaks.
You're taking away all my coping mechanisms.
oh and by the way Mum. Fuck you. I'm sorry you're having a hard time, but I'm having a hard time too. Deal with it.
i miss u, i miss us, n im so lonely without u. cant cope with all my treatment n pain, its like u took it all away, inside and out. im such a fuck up i love u so much it kills me everyday
Now I'll play your ghost as my ace, whenever I'm led astray.
But I am actually good, can't help it if we're tilted.
I'm in my right place, don't be a downer.
Fuck you. Fuck you all. I know I'll never be good enough. You really don't need to rub it in.
And I genuinely can't believe what I've done. Seriously. Shit son. Rette mich? Ich vebrenne immerlich.
Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
