Hey Kahlia, just wanted to say I have been following your other thread even if I've not been replying much. I hope being in hospital is helpful and you start to feel better soon. Stay strong hun xxxx
I'm sorry, that's all I can do Not good for much of anything atm.
I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I'm out of control, and at times hard to handle, but if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.
~ Marilyn Monroe
*hugs helen* don't give up please.
*hugs forever lost* It's okay, don't be sorry. Hope you are okay.
*offers cookies and pillows to everyone*
I'm so mad right now. I understand when people don't have to time/don't want to talk to me right now or whatever... but at least have the decency to tell me. I don't like hearing from other ppl that the person that I wanted to talk to knew i wanted to talk but just decided to never get back to me. I hate when people phase me out. I ALWAYS lose people that i tell things too, i should just stop talking.
<3
forgiveness is the release of all hope for a better past - buddy wakefield
*hugs everyone* Sorry it's not more but there have been a lot of posts since I was last able to be in here.
As you will have guess I'm no longer IP. I got discharged today with only a slight change to my medication. Things are still the same - suicidal ideation with plans, voices telling me to kill people and to kill myself and visual hallucinations. It wasn't getting any better while I was in hospital but at least the pdoc was understanding and appeared to be trying to work things out without me having to go through the crisis team. I just hope it works out or I'll be back up there again.
*hugs everyone then goes and hides in a corner*
She shouts, she screams, she smashes your dreams . . .
Would you mind if I killed you? Would you mind if I tried to?
'Cause you have turned into my worst enemy,
You carry hate that I don't feel: It's over now WHAT HAVE YOU DONE
* Proud Plumeria Sister * My Support Thread * I got lei'd in vets *
* My RYL Family: big brother Doikers; little sisters MammaMia & flutterby butterfly *
*hugs Arwen* Thanks though the only changed my anti anxiety medication in order to help me sleep and it's not working .....
She shouts, she screams, she smashes your dreams . . .
Would you mind if I killed you? Would you mind if I tried to?
'Cause you have turned into my worst enemy,
You carry hate that I don't feel: It's over now WHAT HAVE YOU DONE
* Proud Plumeria Sister * My Support Thread * I got lei'd in vets *
* My RYL Family: big brother Doikers; little sisters MammaMia & flutterby butterfly *
*cuddles Arwen* How you doing sweet? Ugh everything's going wrong. I don't even know where to begin anymore. Just so much ****ing **** going on. Don't want to deal with it anymore. Having a really bad day, trying to keep myself safe :/
*Hugs Kahlia* Maybe it takes a bit of time for it to start working? Hope you feel better soon xxx
*Hugs Helen* Well done for trying to keep yourself safe while things are going badly. Have you tried doing something nice for yourself? Something to cheer you up and help you put the bad stuff to the back of your mind? xxx
I'm doing okay :) Absolutely desperate to get a job - I have not got enough money to live on. Because I can't get benefits towards my rent, almost all of my JSA pays for it. Which leaves me £10 a week to live off. Grrrr!
But, other than money stress, things are going well.
*cuddles Helen* Thanks. I hope I start feeling better soon too.
*cuddles Arwen* Ditto what I said to helen but yeah I think it takes awhile to work.
*hugs mollycat* What's up hon?
I feel positively awful this morning. Like I have a drug hangover. And I have a really sore back from the hospital beds that a night in my own bed didn't fix. Right at the moment I just want to cry....
*goes and finds a free corner and curls up and cries*
She shouts, she screams, she smashes your dreams . . .
Would you mind if I killed you? Would you mind if I tried to?
'Cause you have turned into my worst enemy,
You carry hate that I don't feel: It's over now WHAT HAVE YOU DONE
* Proud Plumeria Sister * My Support Thread * I got lei'd in vets *
* My RYL Family: big brother Doikers; little sisters MammaMia & flutterby butterfly *
Thanks Laura *hugs* Sorry folks are letting you down atm
*leaves her corner for a bit to bring out tea, coffee, coco, and all sorts of good treats then returns to corner and stares vacantly at the floor*
*sigh*
Love you Helen
I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I'm out of control, and at times hard to handle, but if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.
~ Marilyn Monroe
Not good for much of anything atm.
