Got my next appointment through with the psychiatrist.... October!
Does anyone know of anyways I could get this brought forward? my GP's going to try, but not sure if anyone knew of any other ways?
Silent have you got a CPN? If so they could possibly get it brought forward, or your GP is a good bet, mine usually manages it fine so you should be ok :) take care xx
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“If ever there is tomorrow when we're not together.. there is something you must always remember. you are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. but the most important thing is, even if we're apart.. i'll always be with you.”
You aren't a failure. However, I know it's easy for me to say that and it's very hard to believe. If you said the same to me I would be thinking "Nope, I am a failure" but truly - you aren't. You are having a tough time at the moment and the extra pressure is understandably making it harder for you to rewrite your resume. Especially as your room mate is taking the mick. How nice...
Do you think it might help if you stop it for the night and have a look at it again tomorrow? You might feel a little more clear headed then? (Sorry, I'm assuming you are UK)
I am a bit distressed, well maybe more than a bit and I have strong urges to OD. I have had these urges for a long time now but I feel it is getting closer. I guess I feel torn because as much as I want to kill myself I know that there are so many consequences to it as well. x
I don't think you are a terrible person. As somebody very kindly pointed out to me in my thread, when we think like that it is a cognitive distortion. It is your illness telling you that you are a terrible person etc. It's not the truth.
I'm sorry you were triggered by your room mate. I can understand that you felt hurt even though it wasn't said to hurt you ~ it would hurt me too. I would find that very offensive to be honest and thoughtless. I have been in many an occasion where somebody has said something as a joke but it's really cut deep with me. Please don't feel guilty over the fact you couldn't help him. I'm sure you try your best to help him and maybe you did help him and he just hasn't said?
BPD is such a bugger to control and I am sure you are doing your best. Try not to delete this post if you can. It means that we can try and support you better. It's not a wasted post at all.
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Hi everyone, sorry I haven't been around.
I could really use some advice right now but I can't think of anywhere else to go... I hope you don't think of me as rude.
Okay as some of you may know I have a boyfriend. Well recently we changed that to an open relationship because he's going to uni next month and I'll still be at college. He also said that in the 4 months we've been together he's got off with other girls at clubs when hes been drunk but hasn't slept with them. He said he found it hard to commit cos he's never had a gf before, I said that was fair enough and suggested an open relationship.
But because I get conflicting feelings towards him I get conflicting feelings about the open relationship. When I really like him and care about him and miss him, I think its a bad idea and start crying. When I'm not that bothered about whether I see him or not, I don't really care about him and I don't miss him i think its a good idea.
i really dont know what to do, my moods are swinging so i dont really know what im feeling. all i know is i dont wanna let him go cos i trust him but at the same time i just sort of feel crushed cos i dont think he feels the same way.
Sometimes it doesnt bother me that I havent seen him for 3 weeks because then it means that when i do see him i enjoy it more, but sometimes it really bothers me cos it means he doesnt wanna see me (i always have to suggest meeting up and stuff).
i just cant deal with these changing thoughts and feelings constantly, i dont know what im supposed to do, some days im strong and confident about the situation, other days im a crying hysterical wreck.
what you are going through would be difficult for anyone but with Borderline it makes relationships that bit harder. Firstly I would say you deserve better than someone going off to clubs and kissing other people behind your back. Everyone is new to relationships at some point but it doesn't excuse that kind thing.
Long distance will always be hard on a relationship but he should be able to commit to you and stay faithful. I know open relationships work for some people but you don't need to have one just because you won't see each other as much.
It is horrible breaking up with someone I know but you need to do what is right for you. Don't let him hurt you sweets.
Hope your ok x
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I used to long for a casket to call my own.
my internet acces isn't very consistant so I apoligise if it takes me a while to reply to anyone
hey everyone...i´m new here and thought to pop in.
not my best week this one is. my fiancé of 3 yeras might kick me to the curve: he doesn´t answer his phone, nor does he reply to e-mail or text. it´s the third day he´s giving me the silent treatment... dunno what happened. we had a nasty argument but on tueday we said goodbye telling each other that we love each other...
panicking quite a lot. dunno what to do with myself without him, also my whole future (apartment, job) is dependent on him, since he lives in India and I was supposed to migrate there within a few weeks. Something I worked towards during the last 1 1/2 years.
Hi all, sorry I havn't been around for a while I'm not doing at all well, shall probably end up in hospital in the next few weeks as my psych wants to admit me cos I told her the exact date of my suicide plan.
how is everyone?
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Hyro- welcome to the forum. The stuff going on with your fiance sounds like a lot to be dealing with. I really hope he gets in touch and you get some answers at least
Oliver- sorry to hear things are going downhill, shame you don't live closer to me. Looks like I am going IP as well soon. Hopefully you'll get the help you need there as inblack said.
inblack- I know how tough it is, hope you manage to stay strong *hugs*
I used to long for broken bones
I used to long for a casket to call my own.
my internet acces isn't very consistant so I apoligise if it takes me a while to reply to anyone
hi everyone, not been on here for a while and recently discovered the family have lied to me, a so called friend has lied and gone behind my back another has left me and im so alone im so fed up with this life, why me????? hugely triggered wish i could cry but i cant :(
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I just, I don't know what to do.
I don't wanna dump him cos he knows a lot about me and even though he's kissed other girls (he hasn't done anything more than that) I don't wanna let him go cos he makes me feel safe when i'm with him.
Yeah but then at least with an open relationship we won't feel guilty if we get off with anyone else cos its open.
I know him and I know that he won't be able to stay faithful while he's at uni.
It doesn't feel like he's hurting me, I think I'm hurting myself. I'm just so confused, I really don't know what to do or say to him. But I just know that I don't wanna lose him.
Hope everyone's okay, sorry I didn't reply to anyone else's posts, I'm just too upset right now and can't concentrate very well.
Oh hai! I just found this thread! I intro'd myself in the intro forum, so I won't do it again here. I just wanted to say I have over a year of study/training/practice in Dialectical Behavioral Therapy and if anyone is going through that now and has questions with mindfulness, emotion regulation, distress tolerance, or interpersonal effectiveness I would be happy to try to put in my two cents. Of course I am by far no expert, I am just saying that I have gone through it and I know what a complete PITA it can be and maybe I can help.
Also every now and then I will ask for support. Sometimes I want to throw DBT out the window, but I have been doing it for a while now, it really does become ingrained after a while. It's all about changing behaviour and making new pathways in my brain;changing my thinking. My emotional outbursts and fits of rage are less often, less severe and shorter in duration. I am understanding that I have created many of the problems I have in my life, without even knowing it; self-sabatoge.
Currently I have somewhat of a legal question to ask regarding self-harm and the laws regarding the 72-hour involoutary committing that law enforcement can do when they deem you a danger to yourself or others. I won't get into specifics here. Is there anyone in the US who I can direct this question to personally, in a PM or in a different forum? I was unsure which forum would be most relevant.
Anyhow, it's good to know I have company here and am not the only one who struggles with the borderline diagnosis.
