Mrs Pan ~ I'm relieved that you can relate although of course I wish you couldn't because I know how horrible it is. I can feel the presence all the time but it is especially worse at night. I don't know if it's all linked in with the nightmares as well though.
Hope you are both able to sleep soon :) I've taken some more PRN and hoping to at least settle down. Reading my book. x
Good morning everyone, and hi back to those that said hi *waves*. I took my last zopiclone last night, considering I stopped taking them last year because they stopped working I didn't think it'd help but it really did. So now I'm ready to get up, go to the doctors and make my appointment, come back put some make up on, prentend to look pretty and go down to Oxford Street for cherry tobbacco, a book and some of those in-ear headphones.
Hope you all have a great day and I'll see ya later! (I don't know how long this look how ok act I'm doing can last. I'm hoping at least till I fall asleep again)
Hi, I've never even looked at this thread before, but have just been told I might have a personality disorder.
Taken me completely by surprise and feel quite overwhelmed by it.
Im just starting to read some info on it, is a mental health/psychiatric disorder though or not? Im a bit confused about where it fits in next to depression and eating disorders etc...
'You never know how strong you are, until being strong is your only choice'
Hey Pink and Sparkly! BPD is a bit of a weird one, I'm still trying to get my head around it. Reading about it on wikipedia just made my head feel mushy!
Well my trip out fell flat. My ex fiance now works in one of the shops, and he followed me around the shop. Even up to the till! I could have handled seeing that **** any other day but today. :(
Hey Pink, yeah as Willow said BPD is a weird one! I'm newly diagnosed too, & it still confuses me sometimes. If you want to talk you can add me on Facebook, either of my accounts.
I'm doing so much better today - Mum's just said she'll take me out for a meal at Pizza Express tomorrow night. I love that place! Also, the top I've been wanting for ages is on sale! It says 'Choose Life' & that has a special meaning for me! x
That top sounds awesome, and my mum is taking me for dinner tomorrow too! I'm just trying to hold onto that for now. And struggling through till Friday. It's my mate's birthday and I have no idea what to get him :S
Hey everyone. Had a **** morning at work but the afternoon was better; I managed to completely forget about a chilled replensihment I was meant to be doing (so the stuff was sat out of the fridges for ages, but fortunately when they temp tested it it was just about ok), and I also managed to knock over a box of wine and one of the bottles broke, and then loads of other random crap was happening. But on the plus side, one of the guys on the staff asked me out (I turned him down), and a customer said to another staff member that they had noticed "an attractive new girl on the tills". So that made me smile.
Hi Willow. Welcome to the thread. And Rafiki. And anyone else I have met.
Rafiki, BPD is one of those diagnoses where even the psych profesionals can't agree on whether it's an actual "illness" or not. Certainly for some people it is invasive enough on their lives that it becomes a disability, but they are not sure, unlike bipolar or schiz that there is anything chemical behind it. A lot of people describe it as a bio/social condition, so it's part genes and part environment as to whether you get it. BPD can also often be used as a diagnosis as an umbrella term, as its diagnostic criteria are so vague that it can be fit to anyone really so long as each symptom is marked enough to cause distress.
"Keep your heart open to dreams. For as long as there's a dream, there is hope, and as long as there is hope, there is joy in living."
Hi Lizzie nice to meet you. And with a compliment and getting asked out I'd say you're up on the day! I'm so used to knocking over and breaking things I barely notice I do it any more. Except for the other week when I feel over in the bathroom and wrote off the bin after putting my foot through it!
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
Lizzie, the medication I overdse on makes me feel out of it and I hallucinate and feel disconnected from the world and my body. I just want to get away from life for a while.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
Today I chased up Mind and am waiting for them to get back to me, I put on music that relates to how I feel and danced until I couldn't stand any more. I can't say I feel any better, but it did use up some time. And it kind of helps me break away from the feelings for a bit.
