Do you know what has triggered you to want to OD?
I hope in the next couple of days you can find a reason to not OD on Thursday. Are there any steps you think you can take?
I feel like this post will come off really awkwardly, I just think it's so weird to be able to go on this thread and see so many people with BPD. I've only met one other person diagnosed with it, besides myself. I've always wished I knew people with it, or could talk to them, but was never able to. I guess I have just always wanted to talk to people, who are like me.. So, um, hii! <3
i will get through this. one day..
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Oliver ~ I'm sorry I wasn't around after last night. How are you today? Did you manage to overcome the urge? I'm very up & down at the moment. I really want to recover but there seem to be a lot of hurdles!
Jaada ~ Hiya! Welcome to the thread. I think it is comforting speaking to others who have similar things going on in their lives. I have met quite a few people in RL with BPD because of being in hospital and it is helpful. I hope you will find the thread helpful :) If you ever want to chat, feel free to PM me. Lately I've been useless at remembering what threads I've been in so if I don't reply in the thread, I'm not ignoring you. Just a bit forgetful! xx
I've just come out of hospital after 13 months and we were supposed to be continuing my therapy in the community. The problem is, nobody has been able to arrange transport to my therapy so even though I'm well enough to be at home, in order to access therapy I'd have to go away. I think it's about 4 hours to the nearest unit. I'm just stressed about things like how I will cope financially as I used all my savings whilst in the acute ward before and losing out on friendships as it's so far away. Thanks for asking :) Hope you are okay. xx
Things like that really annoy me, the situation you are in, you deserve more support than that and they should be helping you, not making your life harder. You shouldn't have to be worrying about things like that, you have a right to that help and they should have had it all arranged for you. Nobody spends 13 months in hospital for no reason. They're such inconsiderate idiots.
Sorry. Got angry for you haha. It just frustrates me so much.
Anyway. Not sure how I really feel at the moment. Oh well. Who cares.
Bless you Mrs Pan. I totally agree with you and it annoys me too. I've cited that as another reason why I don't want to go away again. As things were okay just before I was discharged and then have been let down in the community. So my worry would be if I went away, did loads of work and then come back and get it all crushed.
Sorry for holding up the thread!
Mrs Pan ~ It is really hard when you can't work out what you are feeling. I just wanted to say I care and it does matter. Sending you hugs.
Tig I'm really sorry about your situation, like Mrs Pan said it isn't right, they should be doing more to help you. *hugs if ok*
Hi silent, welcome back to the thread, I'm Oliver
I got back from hospital today after I OD'd yesterday, I still feel pretty ill though. For the first time no body treated me badly cos I'm trans, but one dr was very patronising, she told me off for living alone and we had a 10 minute arguement about religion in the middle of A and E. The psych I saw this morning was also pretty ****, telling me it was my fault I felt depressed because I didn't think positively enough.
how is everyone?
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
Hey guys, I probably should spend more time on this thread, but I never feel like I have much to say. Hope you're all ok. I haven't read back from my last post because, well that was eons ago. So, thought I'd say hey! *waves* hey.
*waves to Oliver* nice to "see" a familiar "face"
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In a burst of light that blinded every angel
As if the sky had blown the heavens into stars
You felt the gravity of tempered grace,
falling into empty space
With no-one there to catch you in their arms
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Thanks for the hugs Oliver. Hugs for you too :) Sounds like you have had a difficult time over the last couple of days. I hope the ill feeling eases up soon. Sorry to hear the psych was an idiot. Are you getting any extra support?
Hi Flutterby ~ *waves to you* I sometimes feel stuck with what to say too. I saw your thread in the self harm forum, are you okay?
Nope I'm not getting any extra support, the psych didn't even offer the crisis team, but I saw my GP this afternoon and she offered the crisis team, but I refused because a lot of the workers are very patronising and often make me feel worse.
how are you Tig?
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
Ah, it's understandable you don't want crisis team if they just make things worse for you. I'm okay, bit anxious about possibly going to the pub for a friends birthday. I don't really want to go but I'll feel guilty if don't!
