Katie ~ I think people who don't understand BPD label it as attempting suicide to get attention or to get something they want. I don't believe this to be true though. I'm sure there are people who do use suicide attempts to get what they want but not all of us. Has someone said something to you? x
Sometime people see those with BPD as being manipulative, so it could be that they think one may attempt suicide in order to grab attention, But it's a very outdated view of BPD and most in the profession will say that the vast majority of their BPD patients are not manipulative.
Anyone want to do three exams this week? xxx
"Keep your heart open to dreams. For as long as there's a dream, there is hope, and as long as there is hope, there is joy in living."
Nobody can say that people with BPD exclusively use suicide attempts to get what they want, it'd be a stupid non-factual stereotype. We have that pain like others.
Some people, with mental illness in general, do see it as a way of getting others to worry about them and listen to them and if you recognise that as a trait you have it's not because of BPD.
It can be, for some. It can depend on all sorts of things, for example, the treatment offered, and the treatment accepted. In my experience, a person has to work pretty hard to recover from BPD, and sometimes face and accept the whole of themselves. Not everyone will want to be helped.
Some doctors say that a percentage of people, after five years of being diagnosed, no longer fit the criteria for BPD. This may be because it's overdiagnosed! Or it may be because, as people get older, they develop coping strategies naturally to deal with the symptoms.
Some people also find that symptoms subside as they reach their forties, but this is not so for everyone.
Grrrr, having a really shitty evening. I can't be bothered anymore. I really can't. Nothing is worth this. My eating is completely up the creek, I'm so stressed out, and all I want to do is OD/Harm right now. But with two days to my exams and the ball at the end of the week it's not feasible. I don't want to sit these exams but if I don't sit them then I have to wait another year to do so. I don't want to take a year out. But I do want to OD. I wish I had meds up here instead of them being locked away in the nurses' office. I want to OD. I really really do :(
"Keep your heart open to dreams. For as long as there's a dream, there is hope, and as long as there is hope, there is joy in living."
Oh my word, such a change in mood since last night!! I ended up falling asleep with a bottle of [medication] in my hand that I had spent hours convincing myself not to take. Finally fell asleep at about 3am I think.
I'm currently pacing up and down my room learning equations that I'll need for my exam on Thursday. I'm going to manage this. I am going to complete this year. Four days!! :D
"Keep your heart open to dreams. For as long as there's a dream, there is hope, and as long as there is hope, there is joy in living."
eugh...been feeling my mood dropping for the last week/2 weeks, have been having a constant headache for the last 23 days(all month so faR) been to the docs, had blood tests to check my blood count, thyroid, coeliac and infections... having my eyes checked again today as doc asked me to get the back of my eyes checked (despite i had my eyes tested in may and got new glasses)... she's asked me to stop my contraceptive pill for the short term
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i am having visions of me cutting... badly... i sh'ed the other night, not bad... and last weekend something really odd happened.. i went to make myself a cup of tea and my grandfather was asleep on the sofa (it was about 2am) and all i wanted to do was put a pillow over his face and suffocate him till death... ii mean i've had thoughts where i completely hate/envy people who i am close with but never had murderous thoughts before and the worst thing is i don't feel bad for having these thoughts
I've text my cpn telling her i'm having horrible visions and feeling low... but she does limited hours so i don't know if i will get a reply... i just don't know what to do... this week i've cried about having no friends...i actually don't have any friends... i've cried about everything... i have been trying to get a job for 18 months and failing miserably, i've started going to dance lessons recently..and doing voluntry work for the cats protection... but nothing is moving forward... i feel completely hopeless and worthless and i don't seem to have a point in life, i haven't got anywhere to go, no one to go to apart my bf...but i live with him and he can't do much... i haven't got an escape... i started feeling better...my meds starting working for the better and then about 1-2weeks ago BAM started feeling crap..and it's getting worse every day... the self harm is picking up again
good luck lizzie
dannie hope ur headache goes soon could you maybe join a befriending service the dance lessons is a good choice it might take time to make friends but dont be afraid to just talk to people thats allways a good first step.. x
4 questions today were good, the other two were absolute **** :( But never mind, have just got to make sure I am prepared for tomorrow.
Dannie, yeah your dancing may help you to find new friends. Sometimes friends just appear out of nowhere through hobbies etc so that sounds like a plan.
Right, back to organic mechanisms.
"Keep your heart open to dreams. For as long as there's a dream, there is hope, and as long as there is hope, there is joy in living."
first time on this thread, was diagnosed with emotionally unstable pd with psychosis (basically bpd with psychosis) about a year and a half ago. im not one for labels and diagnoses but i do think this diagnoses fits better than all the other ones.
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
So your scars fade away/You soaked up the pain/A better person 'cause you lived through those days/And now you know what it's like to prove/You can overcome anything that gets to you/Well it's alright/We're sayin' our goodbyes/To the past and everything that ain't right/We won't waste another day/With all these silly things in our way-Crossfade
Light a candle for the sinners...Set the world on fire...
the other women on the ballet and jazz adult classes i go to are all alot older than me... which is ok, but why would they want to be friends with a 20 year old..lol..
i picked up a leaflet about a befriending sservice yesterday, will look into it later.. i got a job interview today! they rang yesterday and if i get the job (i'm determined to get it) all i plan on doing is working (if it's full time)... then i can stop getting benefits.. as long as i can still go to my dance lessons on monday evening then i don't care... work work work... lets just hope they understand i do take alot of meds and can't start rediculously early and that i do suffer mental health issues....
