Heaven Knows-
Sorry you couldn't face saying about the plan. was he helpful about the feelings? What did he say?
Sorry your numb hun, know that feeling, I am feeling that way too. I also feel a bit confused. Just want to shut the head up for a min, can't think straight. Also really triggered *shrugs* harming is so tempting right now. I am so pathetic. But I guess nothing really matters at this point.
Here's the day you hoped would never come,
Don't feed me violins, just run with me
through rows of speeding cars.
21 on the run, on the run, on the run
From myself, from myself and everyone
I better leave the light on
The darkness, The sweetness, The sadness, The weakness,
O, I need this
Hi, I'm Roli Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
You're not pathetic honey. Not at all <3
Can do anything to stop brain for a bit? Like listen to music or do something which uses your senses to help keep you in the now not in your head?
He just said the usual stuff - keep distracted and call crisis if I feel I need to overnight, and to call him if I feel bad during day. I think him and my psych are just hoping this DBT works and I start to have some improvement =/
LOL- I am sorry to laugh. I am. But the response about DBT is the same one I am getting! I start in Jan and it appears that everyone is just trying to keep me alive long enough to hope that the therapy helps somewhat.
I am sorry he couldn't be of more use. Are you doing DBT atm? Is it helping you? Its good you could tell him your feelings, even if you didnt mention the plan.
Its ok, I will sort something out.
Hugs x
Here's the day you hoped would never come,
Don't feed me violins, just run with me
through rows of speeding cars.
21 on the run, on the run, on the run
From myself, from myself and everyone
I better leave the light on
The darkness, The sweetness, The sadness, The weakness,
O, I need this
Hi, I'm Roli Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
*hugs*
This will be my third week. Done mindfulness and starting distress tolerence thurs. It's kind of okay but i'm just worried if it doesn't work they're gonna give up on me.
I'm always around if you want to talk <3
I am fast running out of fight. There is a hitch of fear in that, but an overwhelming acceptance. It is beginning to feel like time, a time long over-due.
Roiben x
If the Human brain were so simple that we could understand it, we would be so simple that we wouldn't.
Roiben- I am so sorry things are so bad for you atm. I hate the acceptance stage. Its dangerous. Are you getting support atm? Support to help you fight when you dont have the strength.
Are there any things you live for? Things you would hang on for?
Keep talking hun, its good to talk xx
Here's the day you hoped would never come,
Don't feed me violins, just run with me
through rows of speeding cars.
21 on the run, on the run, on the run
From myself, from myself and everyone
I better leave the light on
The darkness, The sweetness, The sadness, The weakness,
O, I need this
Hi, I'm Roli Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
It seems like today i havent had a single emotion, i think i want it this way no more having to feel happy or sad, just nothingness
Take me away, I just want out from this self-imprisoned self-made Hell. Don't be surprsed, this is your mind coming to life by self-sacrifice. This tragedy of death will walk hand in hand with every thought of regret. Blame yourself for what you've become. The mind is a powerful thing set to self-destruct.
~I, Dementia - Whitechapel~
Work was okay. Nervous about today though. Didn't sleep well. Having hard time getting moving already. :(
Katie hugs when do you talk to Cpn again?
Acceptance is not good roiben. Hugs.
Saw my psych yesterday. He changed nothing but gave me sleeping pills. Guess I should have used them yesterday. Guess I shouldn't save them up huh? Nooo
Gotta go to work. Poo. Later guys.
Katie, how are you doing? Still have a date in mind? I'm worried about you. Can you ring your Cpn and tell him about the date? Huggles.
Yeah, my psych doesnt trust me much with meds, he only prescribed 10 pills. He never prescribes much for me because he doesn't want me to overdose. I appreciate that. It's a pain to constantly be going to the drug store to be filling prescriptions though.
*hugs* I don't really feel anything right now. I still have the date. It's not for a while yet though. I can try to ring my CPN - just can't really talk to him very well. I might try. Got group tomorrow as well so might say something then.
I know what you mean, I have to keep going back because they don't give me much.
How're you doing today honey?
I met with my care coordinator just this morning... I'm pretty sure she won't wanna hear from me again. Crisis are shit.
It will all be ok in the end. I know it will.
Hugs in close
xx
Here's the day you hoped would never come,
Don't feed me violins, just run with me
through rows of speeding cars.
21 on the run, on the run, on the run
From myself, from myself and everyone
I better leave the light on
The darkness, The sweetness, The sadness, The weakness,
O, I need this
Hi, I'm Roli Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
