OhMyGod YESYESYES!
I LOVE YOU!
I must look well weird sitting in my living room with a silly little smile on my face
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Chapter 39
Ray lay Pembe down on the sofa and began kissing her passionately, their hands roaming freely around each other bodies as the kiss intensified.
Pembe began tugging at Rays shirt trying to get it off him.
Ray broke the kiss apart and looked at Pembe. She was stunning.
"You know it would be much more comfortable on my bed" Ray smiled, as Pembe nodded and got up and ran up the stairs, ray closely following and slammed his bedroom door shut after him.
"Dude, that’s totally gross" laughed Mikey at yet another one of Toms dirty jokes.
"You got to admit though its true" Tom said laughing at his own joke. Mikey shook his head at his friend and smiled. Aside from his Jokes he did love Tom, he was an awesome mate. The others just giggled at the friendly banter between the two.
They walked through the dark New Jersey streets, it was late at night and no-one was about, no cars nothing. Great night if you wanted to come out for a feed.
Just as they past a dark alleyway Mikey saw something at the far end of it, he took a double glance and he realised it was a figure. Gerard couldn’t have come out and had a feed on his own would he? And he certainly wouldn’t leave a body just lying there.
"Hey guys, ill catch up with you, I'm just gonna check something out" Said Mikey, glancing down the alleyway.
"No Mikey you got to come" said Bill.
"I just want some fresh air, I wont be that long"
"But you’ve got the keys!" said Bill laughing slightly, seriously how did Mikey expect they would get in the house without keys?
Mikey chucked them over and the group said there goodbyes, they knew Mikey would be safe, and they headed back to the house.
"What do you think Mikeys really doing?" asked Amy
"Dunno, I'm sure its nothing though" smiled Bill, putting his arm around her.
Mikey headed down the alleyway cautiously towards the figure. It was too dark to make out anything but as he got closer he heard sobbing. He recognized it. It was his brother. Mikey ran towards him and got down beside him and wrapped his arms around Gerard in a hug, who fell into Mikeys arms and cried more.
"Mikey! Its all my fault! Everyone hates me!" sobbed Gerard, tears soaking his brothers shirt.
"Shh Gerard, no-one hates you" Soothed Mikey, he hated seeing his brother upset, he was meant to be the strong one, the one who looks after everyone.
"They do! They all know everything"
"Yes they do, but they don’t hate you, we’re just concerned"
"No! You don’t get it, they hate me! Frank hates me!" Gerard said looking up into his brothers eyes. Mikey was expecting to see sadness but he was greeted with nothing. There was no spark in his brothers eyes, no emotion. Nothing. Mikey had never seen him like this before.
Mikeys thoughts were interrupter as he felt rain drops on his arms, and they began to get heavier. Merging with his brothers tears.
"Gerard come on, I'm taking you home" He said helping up his brother, helping support his own weight, it was obvious he couldn’t do it himself.
They reached the house, Mikey went to unlock it but remembered he had given the keys too Bill so they could get in. Mikey put his hand out and knocked on the door as he tried to support his brother.
Tom opened the door and looked at the two brothers.
"Tom help me get Gerard to his room" Tom didn’t need to hear any more nor did he need to say anything, he just grabbed Gerards other arm as took him to his room, on their way passing the other members of the group, all shooting questioning glances at the teen.
Tom and Mikey managed to get Gerard to his room and were almost at his bed when Tom noticed the bottle and the empty package on the floor next to the bed.
"Mikey look" Tom said, nodding towards the bottle and empty package on the floor.
DILLIGAF
"it’s when you’re acting selflessly, that you are at your bravest"
- Four.
♥
Chapter 40
Frank was laid on his bed relaxing. He’d been avoiding his mum all day and pretended to be asleep so he didn’t have to face any difficult questions. He heard the door knock downstairs and then someone coming up the stairs. He quickly turned over to look like he was asleep. His door was flung open and someone came rushing towards him, shaking him frantically. “Frank wake up quick!”
Frank looked up “Mikey what the hell are you doing here?!” “It’s Gerard look I’ll explain when we’re there!” Frank got up and ran out of his room, and straight over to Gerard and Mikeys house. Frank was about to run down to the basement but Mikey stopped him “Frank let me explain first,” “No Mikey, if something’s wrong with Gee I wanna see him now.” Frank didn’t wait for Mikey to stop him this time. He raced down the stairs and straight into Gerards room. He saw Gerard curled up on the bed sobbing. Frank wanted to go to him but the bottle and the package on the floor caught his eye first. He looked from the items on the floor, to Gerard and then back again. “Gee what’ve you done?” Frank couldn’t believe his eyes. Gerard couldn’t look Frank in the eye. “I did something stupid Frank. I ****ed it all up. I know you hate me. Just go”
Frank walked slowly over to Gerard and sat down beside him “Why Gee? Everything was ok? Why did you have to do it?” Gerard shook his head “I dunno Frank it was a mistake. It was a way of coping or something. The package was a mistake, I was supposed to throw it away. I don’t even know why I took it in the first place. But things got too much and I didn’t know what else to do.” Frank didn’t listen to the last thing Gerard had said “What about the alcohol Gee, was that a mistake?” Gerard didn’t answer him, he just continued to sob into his pillow. Frank watched him. How could this have happened. Everytime things started to go right for them, something else would happen to **** it all up. He put his head in his hands not really knowing what to say or do. “Frank, s..say something, p..please?” Frank shook his head “I can’t dfeal with this right now Gee, I’m sorry.” Frank got up to leave but Gerard grabbed his hand “No Frank please! You can’t leave me, it was a mistake. Don’t go.” Frank pulled his hand away and turned to walk away. He got halfway up the stairs when Gerard grabbed at his hand again. As Frank pulled his hand free a second time, he felt a crippling pain shoot through his stomach and then everything went black.
Frank opened his eyes, he was surrounded by white. Everything was white. He panicked, then he felt Gerards hand gently stroke his hair. “Where am I?” “You’re in hospital Frank. You fainted that’s all.” “Gerard I’m sorry. Can we just try and put it all behind us?I can’t stand when we argue.” Gerard smiled but a doctor walked in before Gerard could say anything. “Ah Mr Iero. Good to see you’re awake.” Frank looked at the doctor he was worried. He knew what had happened had something to do with how ill he’d been. “We’ve done a few tests and a scan…” The doctor broke off, realising Gerard was in the room, he asked him to leave. Gerard looked at Frank. As Frank looked into Gerards eyes he knew this was it. Whatever was wrong with him, Gerard had to know too. There couldn’t be anymore secrets. “No, I he’s my boyfriend. I want him to stay. “Gerard sat back down and took Franks hand. They both turned back to the doctor waiting for what he had to say.
Chapter 41 "Okay Frank, I'm doctor Adlam and before I get started I just want to ask if you have been feeling ill lately?" Frank nodded and he explained about the vomiting. The doctor wrote down the symptoms Frank had been having and drowned. Frank noticed this but didn’t say anything.
"Okay and have you had any pain anywhere?" Frank nodded again
"Yeh I had this shooting pain through my stomach and next thing I know I'm here" he said squeezing Gerards hand.
Right before I say anything I'm going to give you an IV before because Frank you’re extremely dehydrated" said The doctor who had now introduced himself as Dr Adlam.
"What's that for?" Frank asked curiously. The IV they had forced on him had done it's work and Frank was feeling much better now that he was hydrated. The anxiety was still there, but at least his headache had subsided.
"This is an ultrasound. I'm sure you've probably seen one on television before. I'm just going to use it to take a look inside your abdomen," he explained calmly as he began setting up the equipment beside the bed.
"What are you looking for?" Gerard asked apprehensively, worried for his boyfriend.
Doctor Adlam paused and looked towards the boys with a forced smile of reassurance. He had to remember he was dealing with two frightened teenage. Honesty was important, but how could he explain this without frightening him. "Well, Frank will need some scans to determine whether or not there are any tumors present. However, we have to rule out the possibility of pregnancy first. An ultrasound is the fastest way to do that. It would also show any abdominal tumors, and since the abdomen is the most common place for this sort of tumor this may be the only test we need to do. It's best to start with the most simple test, right?"
"wait wait wait, PREGNANCY?" Gerard pratically yelled
"Yes, there have been some cases with male pregnancy lately and these symptoms match. But on thing Frank, have you been using any nictotine patches lately?"
Frank Nodded.
"Okay the male pregnancies have all been associated with nicotine patches, so we’ll have to do a ultrasound to just rule out that chance, we probably wont find anything, but its just to be safe"
The boys nodded, even though it sounded absolutely ridiculous.
"All right, let's get this over with. Gerard, would you please move over just a little and give us some space to work. Frank, I'm going to need you to remove your shirt and lie back on the bed," he instructed. Doctor Adlam was a wise man and he'd already realized that asking Geard to leave the bed altogether would be futile. It was quite apparent that the boys relied on one another for support, and given the circumstances he would not disturb that.
Frank looked at his boyfriend nervously but Gerard only patted his hand softly before pulling away and scooting to the edge of the bed to give him some space. A small pink tinge appeared on Frank's cheeks as he removed his **** and handed it to his boyfriend. Getting undressed for doctors had always made him feel a little bit weird.
"I'm just going to put some of this gel on your stomach to help the ultrasound move around easier. It's a little cold, but it doesn't hurt," the doctor said softly, as if talking to a frightened child. He felt terribly sorry for the boys having to go through all of this on their own without any family there with them, but at least they had one another.
Frank nodded and let out a little squeak as the cold goo was applied to his stomach. He watched the nurse smear it around his belly and couldn't help noticing how much it looked like the lube Gerard bought at the drug store, which was a task in itself. Under different circumstances he might have found it funny, but here was no humor to be found in the situation now.
"All set," Doctor Adlam announced as he switched on the ultrasound and illuminated the fuzzy screen. "I'm just going to move this wand around your stomach a little. Try to keep still so we can get the best look possible. I promise I wont hurt a bit, and it shouldn't take more than a few minutes."
The cold instrument was placed on Frank's abdomen and Doctor Adlam began to move it slowly across his skin. It tickled and made Frank want to squirm, but he tried his best to hold still. It helped to have Gerard at his side, holding his hand tightly while they both stared at the fuzzy screen. Neither of the teens could make out anything on the screen. It looked like a bunch of static, but the doctor was acting like everything was fine so that must have been what it was supposed to look like.
Suddenly the doctor paused and went back to where he had been looking a moment before. He moved the wand around that same area for a bit, trying to get a better perspective and figure out exactly what he was looking at. Finally he got the angle he needed and the ultrasound was held in place as he stared at the screen.
"Oh my god," gasped the nurse when she saw what the doctor was staring at.
"What? What is it? Is something wrong? Is it a tumor?" Gerard asked desperately. He was practically crushing Frank's hand with his grip, but he didn't notice the little squeak of pain from his boyfriend The boys stared at the screen, trying their hardest to see what it was that had both the doctor and the nurse so stunned.
Dr. Adlam flipped a switch on the wand and suddenly the room was filled with a rapid steady rhythm that left both the boys completely confused. It sounded like a heartbeat, but faster. "This is incredible," Doctor Adlam murmured as he listened to the rapid beating and stared at the image on the screen. He pressed a few buttons, capturing a still photo of the image for his records. For the moment his patient was forgotten. The doctor was simply too shocked to think of anything beyond that miraculous sound.
"What is that?" Frank finally piped up, his voice trembling with fear. He had no idea what was going on, but if that noise was coming from inside him then something was definitely wrong. Images of creepy crawling parasites suddenly came to mind and Frank was afraid he was going to be sick.
"That... that is a fetal heartbeat," the doctor said slowly. His usual beside manner was suspended for the moment due to his shock. The news could have been delivered far more gently, but he wasn't thinking about Frank's feelings at the moment. Doctor Adlam held the wand in place and pointed at a small oddly shaped blob on the screen, "and that is a fetus."
DILLIGAF
"it’s when you’re acting selflessly, that you are at your bravest"
- Four.
♥
Chapter 42 The whole group were back at Mikey and Gerards. There was a movie on but no one was really paying attention to it. So much had gone on in the past two days.
Ray, Bob and Pembe had joined the group, they’d heard about what had happened with Gerard and they had all met up to support each other and decide what to do.
“So, where’s Gerard now?” Asked Bob, scratching his head slightly. He was still struggling with the fact Gerard had been drinking and doing cocaine so heavily. They all were if they were honest.
“I don’t know. When I left to come and meet up with you guys, he was downstairs with Frank but no one’s down there now.” Said Mikey shakily. He’d got a million questions floating around in his head. Some about Gerard and why he’d done it, some about what had happened to him and Frank. Normally Gerard would’ve left a note or called him or text him or something but not this time and it gave the whole group a bad feeling. “Gee might’ve gone out for a feed or something.” Suggested Amy helpfully. “No I don’t think he’d have taken Frank with him. Not just the two of them anyway.”
The whole group sat in silence again when the phone rang. They all jumped slightly. Mikey raced to it and picked it straight up. “Hello? Gerard is that you? Where the hell are you”
The group could only hear Mikeys side of the conversation but it sounded serious. Mikey put the phone down, looking slightly worried. “That was Gerard. They’re both at the hospital.” “What? Why?” Asked Bill, his voice full of concern for his friends. “I don’t know he sounded stressed, I couldn’t make out half of what he was saying. Something about Frank and a fall and then he had to go to hospital.”
Everyone looked at each other nervously. “You don’t think he…he hurt Frank do you?” Asked Pembe sadly. She didn’t like to think of her friends fighting. No one said anything. Gerard had been flying into a fit of rage over everything just recently. And with the drugs and alcohol still in his system he really could be capable of anything.
Bill was the first one to speak. He was the most organised of the group in these situations. “We can’t jump to conclusions. We should go and see them both. We’ll find out what happened when we see them.”
They all grabbed what they needed and made it to the hospital quickly as they could. They gathered at the reception and the woman behind the desk glared at them Trouble making kids! She thought to herself. “Can I help you?” She asked in a sweet voice. It was obviously fake, just as fake as the smile she had plastered on her face. “Yeah we’re looking for a Frank…um….what’s Franks last name again?” Asked Tom. “Isn’t it Lero or Aero or something like that?” Said Ray. He didn’t have a clue but he knew it sounded something like that. “Iero that’s it.” Said Tom “Frank Iero.”
The woman behind the desk checked her screen and found Franks name. She didn’t really want to tell them where he was. The thought of a gang of teenagers roaming the hospital filled her with dread, but at least they wouldn’t be bothering her anymore. She told them which part of the hospital he was in and the group headed off quickly to find him. They went into the ward Frank was on and found Gerard leaning against the wall waiting for them. “Gee what happened?” Asked Amy, running to him and hugging him tightly. “It’s ok.” Said Gerard, not quite meeting anyones eyes. “He collapsed. He’s ok now.”
Gerard leant back up off the wall and led them into the room. Frank looked at Gerard nervously and Gerard looked back at their friends. “Well, when I said ok, I meant….”
