I love Alcohol Induced Altruism(Laura) I still say a church steeple with a lightning rod on top shows a lack of confidence - Doug McLeod Those who believe in absurdities will commit atrocities - Voltaire
I love Alcohol Induced Altruism(Laura) I still say a church steeple with a lightning rod on top shows a lack of confidence - Doug McLeod Those who believe in absurdities will commit atrocities - Voltaire
"Be nice. Think happy thoughts. Champion silver linings. Love all things (not just cute things like babies and kittens) & when you do love - love like they do in power ballads (you know like on a cliff with the wind in your hair and your eyes shut, knowing you'll never know love like this). Watch out for dog poo. Smile at people - even grumpy ones. Remember anything is possible & whatever you do always try to look on the bright side."
someone...
anyone...
please...
please...
please...
just notice that there's something wrong...
just please...
care...
because right now...
no one does...
and it hurts...
which is why i'm so dissasociated from everything.
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I wanted mum to tell you that i went into hospital so that you wouldn't fob me off like you basiclly did before, and sit down and talk to be about everything, so that i could actually feel like you care about me; you're sister; more than your girlfriends children
Im with Ivan and I am not moving back in no matter what happens. You spent too long blaming me for grandad dying and i'd had enough. your only jelous that for once in my stupid life i am happy happier than i have been i my whole life.
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im sorry but if you dont take the help of that bloke at AA then u will never get better, this is ur daughter talking to u, u never listen to me and u probably never will. i know this may sound awful but i want nothing to do with u or grandma again and its just not fair.
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I love you so much u mean everything to me and if u were to ever leave i just couldnt face the world again as u are my heart and soul and i wud try every thing to keep you safe as long as you keep me safe.
getting better slowly everyday
with the man that will make me
the happiest woman alive
iiss aa ddoouubbllee lleetteerr tthhrreeaaddeerr
Whishing on the stars never got me anywhere. It made me think through things with more care.
So that's it? This is how you want it to end? How can you do this to me and claim you still care? "I just don't care about the relationship". Well **** you I AM the relationship. I'm who its with and if you cared about me you would realize that this relationship means the world to me. Therefore you would care about the relationship. I'm tired of the ****ing yo-yo. I'm tired of the fact that I have no idea where the lines are now. Do we still sleep in the same bed? Still do most things together? Or do we start hanging out with people seperately? Oh god I don't even want to think about this stuff! Why the **** are you doing this!?!?! It doesn't feel real. I can tell it hasn't sunk in because I don't yet have new scars as proof. I hate you for this but I can't tell you. Everything is very civil. Everything seems almost the same. Except now you can say you are single. Is that what it is? Did you just want to be able to flirt and find another girl? Were you tired of being tied down? I believe the words 'too young to commit' were tossed around a bit. Is that what this is? You are giving up a great relationship to **** around? No one will ever be able to love you like I do. No one will ever deal with all your crap and still think about you and whats good for you every second of every day. No one else will be okay with you never thinking of her, but meanwhile showing up with little gifts for you. Few other people will do anything to make you smile. No one else will ever get the joy out of it like I do.
**** you, you don't deserve me.
No wait baby! Please. Ugh. I want to be with you for the rest of my life. Why can't you just treat me right? Why can't you just be with me tonight?
"I have this dream of being whole. Of not going to sleep each night wanting, but still sometimes, when the wind is warm or the crickets sing, I dream of a love that even time will lie down and be still for. I just want someone to love me. I want to be seen."
****ing talk to me damnit!
Don't just erase me from your life like I'm nothing, like I never existed
You ****ing hurt me so badly that day. I'm not the one in the wrong for logging off.
I was upset and sucidal and it's because of you that I ended up in that state in the hospital
Just apologise...please
Tell me you're sorry and that you didn't mean it
PLEASE?
We've been through too much to just cut all means of communication now
This is petty
Apologise damnit
The only time you will find real light is when you're searching in the dark..
Our friendship means the world to me, i care about you more than anything, and when you decide to fall out with me for one reason or another, it makes me fall apart. You can dispose of our friendship so easily, it makes me wonder that maybe you aren't a good a person as i've always believed you are, and that maybe you are just a cold uncaring bitch who only wants to know people when they're fine and abandon them when they're upset.
i wanted to tell you that i made myself sick saturday night
but i couldnt
its not worth it i know its not
i hate that girl at work she has been out of order 2 me three times now and i know shes not worth making myself ill over but i just cant help it
Don't be someone else's slogan because you are poetry.
I really want to tell you that I can't stop but I can't.You're my mum and I used to tell you everything but somethings changed and I don't know what.why can't you be there for me.I want to be honest with you but I know I can't talk to you about it.I know you're ashamed of me
Just because I'm not "supposed" to react to what's going on around me doesn't mean I don't. Please keep that in consideration. I'm not a b@#$%, but I'm not a doormat either!
After every storm, there is always a rainbow!
