Katy was very brave last night, as she went to the medical hospital and told her Mum the truth about why, and I am sure she would appreciate all your love and hugs and support.
She will be there until at least tomorrow and doesn't yet know if she will be readmitted to the ward.
Katy, you did fantastically well telling your mum the truth and going to hospital. I know it isn't nice but well done. I hope that you can get some help and support to feel better than you do right now.
Beauty: RIP 3rd November 2008
Dylan left us 23rd March 2012
PM me any time you need to talk and I'll answer as soon as I can.
"Even the smallest person can change the course of the future" LOTR
Thanks everyone still in the medical hospital but hopefully be out by Monday if not today if I get my way so long as I'm not admitted to psych again. Physically better after various treatment but feeling at emotional rock bottom. Scared I've hurt my parents irreversibly and hashed up any freedom I still had. Couldn't feel more of an idiot plus I couldn't sleep last night cos of stupid flashback image stuff. *sent from phone*
'Never forget what you are. The rest of the world will not. Wear it like armor, and it can never be used to hurt you.'
['There is only one thing we say to death. Not today'.']
'We are each our own devil, and we make this world our hell. Oscar Wilde
Its hard to dance with the devil on your back. Sydney Carter
I'm glad that you're in a safe place and I'm sure that your parents don't hate you. I expect that they're glad that you talked to them and let them in. Try to let them help and support you like they want to. They care about you very much.
Perhaps, although you don't want to, staying in hospital over the weekend might be helpful? Try not to fight against the help because you do deserve it, love.
Have been discharged thank beans (plus not self discharged for once!) which is really good as don't think hospital is right place for me right now but will obviously ask for that help if I think it's the right thing. Parents have been as good as can be expected given the shock I gave them, but they have said that if I do anything again I'll be kicked out which is understandable but less than helpful to my already anxious and depressed mood. Just really need some hugs and love right now, despite me having been an utter twat.
'Never forget what you are. The rest of the world will not. Wear it like armor, and it can never be used to hurt you.'
['There is only one thing we say to death. Not today'.']
'We are each our own devil, and we make this world our hell. Oscar Wilde
Its hard to dance with the devil on your back. Sydney Carter
*big squidges* Believe me I understand the parent thing, we'll talk aboit it properly tomorrow and bring you shiny things. I'm really proud of you for being honest. Please do your best to stay safe and remember how much we all love you. All we want is what's best for you...xx
The only time you will find real light is when you're searching in the dark..
Love you, Katy, my inbox/ears/door are always open for you, sweetheart.
Now I'll play your ghost as my ace, whenever I'm led astray.
But I am actually good, can't help it if we're tilted.
I'm in my right place, don't be a downer.
Love you Katy, my inbox is always open if you need it
Beauty: RIP 3rd November 2008
Dylan left us 23rd March 2012
PM me any time you need to talk and I'll answer as soon as I can.
"Even the smallest person can change the course of the future" LOTR
Thankyou all, still feeling pretty shitty but I'll survive. Parents have friends coming round this afternoon which is going to be stressful especially as the woman out of the couple can be really quite judgemental. All in all this means making myself scarce because I can't cope with them, but last time I was in my village alone I bought all of the stupid things and ingested a fair amount of the stupid things so am a little bit 0.o about that, although am meeting Zed about midday which should help a lot.
Seeing home treatment later. Not looking forward to it tbh, don't feel I've really gelled with the woman I mostly see and she seems to be in charge of my care so 0.o
'Never forget what you are. The rest of the world will not. Wear it like armor, and it can never be used to hurt you.'
['There is only one thing we say to death. Not today'.']
'We are each our own devil, and we make this world our hell. Oscar Wilde
Its hard to dance with the devil on your back. Sydney Carter
*wades in*
Just wanted to say that from what I know of you, you're awesome and I hope you're doing OK.
I know you have like ALL the super-cool friends, but if you do ever need someone, I be here :)
Mood still really shitty and I'm sick of all the anxiety and stupid OCD type thoughts, they're driving me up the wall. Plus really feeling like a burden right now which really doesn't help.
'Never forget what you are. The rest of the world will not. Wear it like armor, and it can never be used to hurt you.'
['There is only one thing we say to death. Not today'.']
'We are each our own devil, and we make this world our hell. Oscar Wilde
Its hard to dance with the devil on your back. Sydney Carter
*hugs*
Let me know it there's anything I can do to help? Sorry I've not been much use!
I understand feeling like a burden (I'm positive I am!) but sometimes you've just got to let people help you
There will always be a happy ending. If its not happy then its not yet the end.
Hey Katy/Buttons
Hang in there sweet heart help will be on it's way to you very shortly, it will only be a few days and the hospital will make you feel lots better. good luck!
