About 4 months ago there were 3 suicides near me, some people were i keep my horse were talking about it . They were saying ' but at 17 what could be so bad in your life that you had to end your life?' ( The lad was only 17) A year younger then me. I thought back to when i thought i couldn't see myself making 18. If i had done it.. its sad to think i would have been his age, If the plan had worked i would have turned 17 only 4 months ago.
There was another thing , a big thing that really stopped me from ending my life, eventhough i had many dates. It was the yard manager talked about a woman who used to keep her horse there, at the stables and she was saying. 'How no mother should have to go through losing a child like that' The woman she was talking about lost her son as he ended his life, using the same method i was going to use. Also when i have been suicidal i have read amiees amazing post and it always makes me think about the people i would leave behind.
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