Hehehe, Northern Lights, I like that. *gentle cuddles*
I think the white noise is related to psychosis. But I'm not sure. :-X
My head is so tired. And it feels like it's going to explode.
RYL family: Doikers is my brother
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter into another! - Anatole France.
Hey Emma. *cuddles* How you doing today? Sorry you've been up & down, I know that feeling. :-/
Drinking broth now... just the right thing. Head's still full of white noise & really wants to explode. :(
RYL family: Doikers is my brother
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter into another! - Anatole France.
Does anyone else feel so ugly they don't want to leave the house?
like they are dirty/tainted and need to be clensed.
I've been really struggling lately with my appearance and I don't know what to do.
i feel extremely unsafe, insecure & broken right now
people have hurt me so much
and its one thing after another
and i feel like breaking down
ive taken my tramadol, zoloft and lorazepam so im going to try and sleep soon as ive been up for more than 26 or so hours and past few days ive only had a few hours sleep...
so exhausted & drained & just... urgh.
Sorry haven't been here, didn't realize that there were more posts.
How's everyone doing today? xx
RYL family: Doikers is my brother
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter into another! - Anatole France.
Awwh, I hope that you feel better soon. :( *gentle hugs*
I don't feel good. At all. And I'm home alone & can SI if I want to - and I do want to. I'm **** I know, I can't avoid the urges though and I have no reason not to SI. I really want to and that seems to be a good enough reason... to me at least. Selfish as hell but... I don't have anyone here to stop me and I don't feel strong enough to WANT to stop myself.
I'm sorry. I am not pro-SI, it's just that it's the only coping mechanism I really have right now... :(
*hides*
RYL family: Doikers is my brother
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter into another! - Anatole France.
Katie, everyone else I've missed - how are you guys holding up?
*cuddles for everyone*
RYL family: Doikers is my brother
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter into another! - Anatole France.
Awh, I'm sorry you both are feeling low & awful. I understand that feeling as that's where I am now, as well as angry... the more I think about it the angrier I get!! (therapy appt - details in my venting thread if you want to know, shouldn't be much of any triggers, in that entry at least, maybe a minor ED one?) UGHH... I want to text my therapist to let her know how angry she made me, but I don't want to sound like a whinging three-year-old. :(
It's probably good that I'm angry though. At least I'm not dissociating like I used to... I actually FEEL the anger present in me.
:(
RYL family: Doikers is my brother
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter into another! - Anatole France.
