Yeah, that's what Loz suggested. Nicole on the other hand was like 'OMFG DON'T ACCEPT D<'. I'll think about it more later, I'm hiding out on another account atm
yeah i that excatly what happens to me, i could be watching tv. and all of a sudden it start up. might be something to do with anxeity. thankd secrects, hmm no i dont have anyway to clam myself down, which make the pain in my chest worse,any things i could try, if i have a panic attack. ?
Sorry, too tired for individual replies but sending you all lots of loves and hugs and teddy bears.
My birthday tomorrow and I'm excited and also very anxious. I wish I could be normal and have a meal and a birthday cake and go out with my friends and stuff. I purged twice today, didn't really need to I just needed to vent my anxiety I suppose. I dunno. I'm trying not to dwell on it but I've just been worrying away all day.
...now that all the doors have been shut in my face none can tell me I didn't try, no one can say I can't do it now. Now i can finally leave knowing i tried and THEY didn't care.
"...that incremental suicide of turning your life into a dream, to make being awake as similar to sleep as possible. Drowsily, lazily, dry-mouth your way through the day's ceremonies, fumble your way back into the dew-bather you never really left, draped in brown, brown now all around, the haze!" - Russell Brand on drug addiction.
"Si ma êkh gûndo piyiamásko...ándo bírto barruno. Bírto, bírto barruno."
"...that incremental suicide of turning your life into a dream, to make being awake as similar to sleep as possible. Drowsily, lazily, dry-mouth your way through the day's ceremonies, fumble your way back into the dew-bather you never really left, draped in brown, brown now all around, the haze!" - Russell Brand on drug addiction.
"Si ma êkh gûndo piyiamásko...ándo bírto barruno. Bírto, bírto barruno."
I have nothing, nothing. I am nothing...so i want to feel nothing.
"...that incremental suicide of turning your life into a dream, to make being awake as similar to sleep as possible. Drowsily, lazily, dry-mouth your way through the day's ceremonies, fumble your way back into the dew-bather you never really left, draped in brown, brown now all around, the haze!" - Russell Brand on drug addiction.
"Si ma êkh gûndo piyiamásko...ándo bírto barruno. Bírto, bírto barruno."
hmm i have got no idea what the hell im doing, im really begin to regret doing this thing. okay in the long run it will be great. but right now i feel traped, and confused. im feeling really low again and i want to cut, something i havent thought about in a while. hmm mabye it was me pretending to be happy for 11 days,has started this off again. or maybe im just now relising how much of a comintment, i just put on myself. and was it worth it. im being to think no. it too late now tho. argh!!!! i dont know what im trying to say. hmm might just delet this afterwards. just needed to let out what was running through my mind. might get some peace then. or not. damnit im such a muppet. hits head hard. =[
*hugs arwen* well done on 7 months btw. thinking of you today xx
sorry have beena bit absent. nets been haywire so that sucks. then have my exams tomorrow and next day. barely studied today >_< slowly starting to freak out =[
*hugs zowie* i hope you can be strong for your dad but it must be hard *more hugs*
*more hugs for everyone on the ward thats struggling or just feels the need to be here*
I want to hurt myself so badly it feels like an ache, i want to cry but i can't seem to, everything seems to be going wrong. I want to get better. Its not fair *end whine*
Dayna, you could always accept her under a limited profile?
Hey guys, I'm back :) there was way too much for me to read as it's late and I'm tired, but sending you all big massive hugs and hope the next new week brings things a lot easier. I have had a fantastic holiday, and have just had a brilliant weekend visiting friends in manchester who I haven't seen in ages. Am now triggered because I had a good time and because the guy I like has just told me he likes someone else :P bleh
Huggles and squidges
"I am me and me is good enough if I would only be it openly"
I dunno how to do that O.o. I took the risk and accepted her anyway. She sent me a message saying she was surprised but glad that I accepted her (and typed like a n00b, lol >.>)
My surgery is going ahead but they want me to stay with my cast on for at least another month. D:
*hugs all again*
She shouts, she screams, she smashes your dreams . . .
Would you mind if I killed you? Would you mind if I tried to?
'Cause you have turned into my worst enemy,
You carry hate that I don't feel: It's over now WHAT HAVE YOU DONE
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